Dearest Moon

02.

Everytime Tee gets the script for the series, he doesn't know whether to cry from despair or jump from delight when he receives no direct scenes with Tae. The sidelines was so much more different than trying to act it all up in front of the cameras - mainly because he's afraid someone might catch up and sense the turmoil inside his head. And so, he entrances himself with the privilege of trying to get his heart to calm down with just the sight of Tae getting out of his car every morning when coming to set. He had plenty of time to make himself feel friends with Tae again just before the second season starts filming. It was the deadline Tee never consciously acknowledged. Whatever these were need to stop by that time. Because he knows. Tee knows season two would be a disaster, at least for him.

So, when the managers told them to do a small excerpt of season two for the upcoming fanmeeting, just to tease fans for a bit and make them see what they're going to get once it starts showing, even before they were given the scripts, Tee has quite an idea what it was about. He was trying to act all confident in front of Tae after the instructor had gone out of the practice room, giving suggestive eyebrows to the laughing man.

"Stop that, Tee" Tae said as he laughs at Tee's little ministrations.

"What?" Tee makes a face and shrugs his shoulders "We have to get ready before you give me the 'best night of your life', just so you know"

"God, stop. Okay. It's not like i'm gonna push you to bed and make my way with you in the fanmeet" Tae stated with a smirk, rendering Tee speechless in his seat. The picture of them, in bed, quite getting the best of him. 

Tae inclined closer and slinged his arms around Tee's shoulders as they sat on the floor while the other couples were busy practicing their choreography. "Stop imagining me on top of you, Tee. We'll get to that part soon" he whispered. And just like that, the feeling of Tae's close proximity had been gone in a second, flinching his body away from Tee like he had just done something against the rules.

Tee looks at Tae as the said man got up and stalked away from him to the other boys. Right. He was the one who asked his P'Tae to stop with the skinship.

Right.

"He didn't even give me time to react" Tee thought as he saw Bas teaching Tae the dance moves he had missed.

It had taken minutes before Tee shakes his head and tries to get himself out of his reverie.

"Shit. Shit. Shit" Tee almost yells as he brings his palms around the strands of his hair and pulls at it out of frustration. "You can't continue like this, Tee" he thinks to himself.

The downward part about feeling 'something' for someone is when that someone more than willingly reciprocates your flirty gestures right when no other soul was around, as if it's an intimate secret between you two. P'Tae was exactly that persona. He may look rigid as he simply smiles and laughs at Tee's naughtiness in front of their 'servant wives', but behind those keen eyes was someone who can make Tee's suggestive gestures look pathetic anytime. Tee was more vocal, playfully calling out on twitter anyone who insinuate any kind of liking to his khun luang. Tae, however, was another story. Tae was more physical about it rather than vocal. And that frustrates Tee more than the actual fact that he can't, doesn't dare, put a word to his feelings.

Tee still remembers that time Tae was more than willing to envade his space. They had just finished shooting the part where Yo dedicated a song for Pha and Forth was seen walking out of the hall. Tae acted his heartbreak so well that Tee almost stormed to Yo wanting an explanation why Forth was just not 'it' when Tee can feel himself on the edge of going crazy because of the same guy. The director yelled a "CUT OK. That's it for tonight boys! Your expressions are good today. Keep it up", Godt, Bas and Tae made a peace sign to each other, basking at the director's sudden compliment. As the staff hepled in ushering the fans who got the chance to participate in shooting the scenes with them out of the venue, Tee beams at his P'Tae and gives him a thumbs up. Tae winks back. Tee almost flips a table nearby.