Dearest Moon

***TEASER

I feel so sorry that i hadn't been updating for days now compared to the usual 1 or 2 day interval between chapters so i chose to give a teaser 😆

I'm sorry that it's taking me this long to write the next chapter because to be honest with you guys, i haven't ever written a scene much like this. I've said that i've been writing one-shots in the past, remember? Believe it or not, not one of it ever contained a detailed kiss much like this chapter. I'm actually shocked, myself, with the word count plastered on my face whenever i finish a writing session. The past 3 chapters, if you may have noticed, only contained less than 2,000 words. But can you believe it guys? I still haven't gotten to writing the part where they actually kissed and the word count's already at freakin 4,800 words. 😂😂 so please give a little more of your patience for the next chapter.

Okay. Now, let's get to the teaser 😉
Warning: the following scenes contain actual excerpts from the novel (i did omit some and added a few other scenes to my liking). Just be warned that you're about to be spoiled. 😅

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"Do you want me to show you?"

Tee hold his P's biceps tighter, successfully making Tae look at him with those ablaze eyes. It was so intense that Tee had wanted nothing but to pull him closer.....so he just did.

"Hey, stop it" Tae finally vocalizes his lines as he tried to lift himself up from the bed, but not making too much effort to actually get himself out of it as he was too dazed by the burning passion in Tee's brown orbs. "Ths is not funny anymore"

Tee feels the rush inside his body. It's like everything in the room had been amplified.

"Do me, Forth" Tee says in a quivering voice. This was not just 'acting' anymore, he knows it well. Tee was truly nervous and panicky by the scene that's about to unfold that he almost feels himself being one with his character, Beam. It may have been for totally different reasons - Beam wanting to prove that he can sleep with anyone while Tee needing to verify that he only ever desired for Tae - but both of their emotions played a dangerous waltz as it overlapped in unison of challenge and fury. "Do me" Tee repeats, shocking even himself with how he sounded almost pleading.

"Beam, i think--"

"Do it"

"--you're just too drunk and -"

"Do me, please"

"Beam..."

Tee flinched at the way P'Tae said his name with overwhelming hesitance and fervor. He had never been this close to Tae, except when they do the usual games in shows and fanmeet where they are instructed to do things like pass papers using their mouths. Tee intentionally sucks the paper in the corner of Tae's jaw so the touch of their lips wouldn't be anywhere near each other. (Tee doesn't even want not talk about that time the guys practically shoved his and P'Tae's mouths together as a punishment though). Tee had been scared of anything that can rile up his sentiments when it comes to Tae. He wanted to look cool, calm and unnerving - almost like he's not affected, what a palpable lie that was.

There's a long moment where Tee just finds his P'Tae looking with those glazed eyes, staring at him hard, like he's considering whether to just let his guard down or push Tee away, the emotions exactly what they had described Forth should feel.

Right. This is just work.

"There's nothing wrong with what we're about to do" Tee indecisively claimed as he yanked Tae closer by a palm threading through the strands of hair at the back of Tae's head, sending a sensation down into his skin when he feels their lips almost touching. His drunken eyes blinked fast as he pushed all the remaining determination out of his body to finish this scene. He tugged the older man, closing the remaining little distance that they had, Tee emitting a small yelp as he feels their lips clash in a tamed kiss.

(To the person who made this fanart, you are godsent 💓. Credit all goes to him/her for it)

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Tbh, i've only written the chapter up to this point. 🤔