✔️ Love, Boys And A Whole Lot Of Trouble (Complete)

Chapter 21: Breakups and runny makeup

HOLLA!

Short Chappy - sorry. Is this chapter the one we get to 2k in? Come on, we can do it. On a more serious note: the two of us left on this book are now going to different schools, literally across the world. We may still keep writing but from now on the chapters may be few or not edited or patchy. We're so sorry, but we are doing everything to keep this going. Love you guys so much. 

-TNG xx

I see his silhouette turning around and marching away. Oh fuck, I messed up! I messed up! I messed up! I don't even know how I can fix this.

"Zach, wait!" I cried while I pried myself off of Alec, pushing him to the side. I feel so freaking bad, I have a boyfriend for pete's sake! He's so sweet and kind to me and i've gone and messed it all up. UGH, and what do I do? I make out with another guy! I'm such a bitch. No, I'm even worse. I'm a whore, a slut.

I sprint after Zach, who is almost outside of the cabin at this point.

"Zach, I'm so, so sorry!" I shout after him, "It meant nothing to me!"

At this, he turns around.

"Amelia, you tell me it meant nothing, but I saw you greedily kissing him back and all the lust in your eyes. And you have the nerve to come to me and say it meant nothing. I thought you were different, I thought you were something special. Turns out you're just another slut in a sea of prostitutes." he spits at me. How do I even begin to say I'm sorry, when I'm so in the wrong.

"We are special, babe, I'm so sorry," I say through tears now standing a meter away from him.

"Just stop with the lies Amelia. I'm done with you, but why did you do it? Am I just not good enough for a princess like you?" he says in a mean tone.

"No, I'm sorry. You mean the world to me, Zach." I say choking, but I can see I'm losing him more every second.

"Really? Well you should've thought about that before you started making out with my best friend."

And with that said, he turned around to his car and drove off. Then, just like in the movies, dark clouds slowly covered my head and it started to pour. I stand in the rain still, staring down the road he just drove on. As the puddles get filled up, all I feel is emptiness. My makeup is dripping down off the face, and I realise just how awful I am and much I needed him. I think I love him, but didn't realise it until now.

Half an hour later, I make my way inside. All my energy is drowned in sorrow and regret, and any dignity I had left was left in the street along with my make up. My body soaked to the bone, I'm still in shock. I then realise that I'm not the only one to blame, cheating takes two people. A sudden anger flares up inside of me. I need to find that bastard Alec and punch him, why did he have to kiss me?

The most annoying thing is that I actually enjoyed it. I enjoyed cheating on my perfect boyfriend with a fboy, who probably only wants me for my looks. There is no way I like him at all, he is an asshole and that is what he will always be! I was probably still a bit tipsy this morning when he kissed me anyway, so it didn't count right?!

At this point I'm making nothing but excuses to myself.

I go straight to Alec and slap him in the face. Obviously.

"Why the fuck would you kiss me? You knew far well I have a boyfriend, and I knew you saw him in the door. You're an asshole for doing that, nothing but a self conceited bastard! "

'Or at least I had a boyfriend,' I thought, tears jerking back up in me. I will show no sign of weakness.

His face is startled and he rubs his jaw slightly right where I slapped him, I need to go home and figure this out! I know I don't deserve a second chance, but I'm sure going to try to get one.

Right after my incident with Alec, I go to Lillian with all of my stuff.

"Lillian we are going home," I say to her in a very upset tone. She knows me well enough to not think twice. We pack and are out in minutes.

I started sobbing the minute I sat on my bed, but I decided to pull myself together. I wasn't even with him for long and I'm acting like this is a breakup after years of being together. I wrote down a plan. Well several plans:

Plan A: Send a huge gift card to him for the new froyo place, since he loves froyo.

Plan B: Write a song for him even though I don't know how to and I can't sing. But if I did, it will still be very deep and heartfelt. (UGH, this is really stupid i'm gonna cross this off the list).

Plan C: Go to his house and talk to him about it. (I don't think I can do this one, he won't let me in and I am too ashamed of what I did to him).

Plan D: Write him a letter. (Yeah this sounds good if I pair with the froyo gift card)

I start writing my letter.

Hey Zach,

Where can I start to say I'm sorry. Nowhere, honestly, I know what I did was unforgivable. I owe you a huge apology for what I did and I just wanted you to know that it was a horrible mistake and I should've never kissed him back after he kissed me. You probably don't want to talk to me ever again, and I totally get it, i messed up! I've become such a whore, I'll be surprised if you even read this, honestly. I really did fuck up and I am so sorry, and I don't know what came over me, you are such an amazing guy and the perfect boyfriend. Right now, I have to take responsibility for my actions, and I realise that. Yeah I kissed him, and I will hate everyday for doing that. So far, you have been you have been the best boyfriend ever. That kiss meant nothing to me, and although it's immature, I'm going to add that it was your best friend who kissed me first. I'm so sorry I will never ever do that ever again and if you still like me I am here and waiting for you.

Sorry and so much love,

Amelia x.

I walk to his house and drop this letter in his mail box right. Right now all I can do is hope that he reads it and that he wants to talk to me. But I don't think he will, after all, I don't deserve it. 

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TNG.