✔️ Love, Boys And A Whole Lot Of Trouble (Complete)

Chapter 24: Teary and weary

Hey,

And we are back. This book will be finished we swear! You might hate Amelia in the chapter. Read the authors note in the end, I think it's a super important message and explains why she acts this way.

TNG.x

What has my life come to? Nothing but people using me, seemingly! I'm sick and tired of people who feel the need to make my life miserable. What would happen if I just let go? Would anyone care? Probably not.

I feel like I've been thrown into a hole, that I can never get out of I can never escape. Zach is such an asshole and I should have known, once a player always a player, right?

I'm on my bike riding to god knows where when I hear a crack and thunder in the distance. Soon the clouds open fire and it starts to rain hard, wet drops down on my forehead and then my arm and soon my whole body is soaked to the bone. Why does life have to be so unfair? The worst always has to happen to the best people right? Well that better be the case.

Hot tears running down my cheek, I sob once, then twice. I'm done! Drowning, with no way out...

I calm down a bit as I have cried out my last tears. Violet's house is just around the corner, maybe I can find her and talk to her about it? Still lost in my thoughts turn left towards violets block, I hope she can help me with my problem. The voice inside my head keeps shouting "You were never good enough for him! You fucking thought, but nope. Why do you even try?"

Well, welcome to my life. Whenever I am down, I get into a depressed mode and the voice inside my head drowns me in negative thoughts. No way to go, I can't get rid of my voice he is always there and i am always here.

The voice still whispering, "It's probably that girl he posted a picture with, and your stupid ass forgave him."

I start to believe it, the voice in my head. What was her name again?, the girl that Zach was with I check the caption it says 'love you Mauri!' That fucking idiot is cheating on me with a chick named Mauri. What the fuck has my life come to?

I pull over to Violet's place, with my bicycle nearly slipping in the muddy driveway because of the pouring rain. God, let's hope she is home. I move towards the door and ring the bell twice. 'RINGGGGG'. She has moved in with her cousin after the whole baby situation. Her cousin Lesly answers the door.

"Oh hey Amelia! Violet is currently not here, I have a friend over if you want to come in,"

I thank her, she is the best person ever. She probably saw that I been crying and I am soaked to the bone due to the rain. I shiver a little as she guided me towards the living room, she passes me a very wooly blanket and a warm jumper, I thank her with gratitude. She walks out as if she forgot something and grabs something in the kitchen, she passes me a box of tissues, I hadn't even realized I had started to cry again.

Her friend walks into the living room and I freeze - it's Mauri, that bitch that my boyfriend was cheating on me with. I get out of my seat and walk straight to her face. That fucking bitch, I'm going to kill her, she probably drove here to talk to Lesly about how great her night was.

"You fucking bitch, made my boyfriend cheat on me!" I yelled. I was so short tempered and right after I said it, I doubled over and started sobbing again. I couldn't contain my emotions and feelings. Everything was blend of hatred, anger and sadness. To my surprise she gets down and comforts me.

"You must be mistaken I'm Zach's cousin. I don't think I would ever do that, because that's incest." She pulled a face before turning back to me. "Are you ok? I know Zach can be a right bitch and such a heartbreaker!"

She was the most sympathetic person and so sweet to me, especially since I accused her and called her a bitch. I think one thing I learned from this is that jumping to conclusions is the absolute worst thing ever, you will never really see the side of another person if you don't let them tell you what is going on.

==(A few hours later) --

I hear a clicking in the front door. Feeling a bit better, I get up from the comfy couch and I go check who is coming so late. If it's a burglar, I will kick their ass - I'm in no mood to be scared right now given my past few hours. I am still at Violet's house with Mauri and Lesly, they already went to bed though, but I decided to wait until Violet came home, so I could talk to her about my predicament. I just need someone to be there for me right now and since Lilian is having a movie night and dinner with her family right now I wanted Violet.

I hear two voices and a very distinct laugh that I have heard so many times before. What? Well, apparently Violet is bringing someone else in. My face pales and I suddenly remember who the owner of the laugh is - Zach. What the fuck is he doing here? Emotions come crawling back and I feel my cheeks heat up and my nose prickle. I don't want to face him right now, I can't.

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Yes, the authors fully believe Amelia is way over-reacting. Her boyfriend cheated on her, which we agree by itself is no reason to even to consider suicide or these dark thoughts she's having. He wasn't worth her time, so she shouldn't be upset, but Amelia can't see this. At one point she is saying her life is awful, and it really isn't. She's middle class, eating three meals a day, has a house, gets to go to school and has friends. She's bloody unbelievably privileged beyond most people in the world, and she can't see this because she is so blinded by self-pity. Amelia is young, she still blows her problems up making them overwhelm her. It's annoying as shit (yes, we agree) but it gives room for character development and provides a new thought for some readers. Love you all, TNG xx.

We'll be back next Sunday, be ready for a shit ton of drama ;)