✔️ Love, Boys And A Whole Lot Of Trouble (Complete)

Chapter 29: Happy tears and no more fears.

It was amazing, our first kiss. Well, not really our first kiss. But I'm counting it as our first. Alec never left my side and nor did Lily and that's all I ever needed from those two. I love them both so much and they are absolutely the best people in my life, standing by my side through everything. I heard Alec nealy got suspended for beating up Zach in the courtyard for what he did, but luckily they were not on school premises when it happened, so he didn't get in trouble. I'm not saying I condone violence in anyway, but in this situation it was more than fitting (and maybe childish).

Things went up from there - I spent days in the hospital intensive care unit with Alec by my side the whole time. I was in intensive care with the serious patients, because of my 'unstable psychological situation' and my 'numerous injuries'. My pain had faded into bruises and slowly but surely I stopped getting suicidal thoughts.

I am a suicide survivor. But, if it weren't for Alec i would have died and i would have never realized what great people I have around me. Alec was all it took.

As for Violet I'm done with her, she can lead whatever fucked up life that she wants too and I'm not going to stop her because she is just a cruel, insensitive and heartless bitch. Over all the worst friend you could possibly have - and what happened showed me this side of her. I laugh looking back on it - why would anyone ever want to be her friend?

A surprising amount of people popped in - some of my relatives and some of the people from school that I didn't know that well, but it was still nice to see that people cared about me or for me.

It was amazing to wake up mid-day to see a mound of presents and cards all for me. I couldn't help but feel overwhelmed and cry. These people were why I tried to take my life and now... Now, they are leaving gifts being all nice and supportive. What a joke. High school really does suck sometimes - people can really be bitches if they are put in certain circumstances. This whole experience taught me to be grateful, while being less selfish and less conceited.

But, today is a day like none other. I wake up in my hospital bed per usual and I decided to check my phone for the first time since the incident. It always scared me, because of the note thing I sent before Alec stopped me. I always thought - what if people sent mean messages in reply to it? I breathed in and decided I was strong enough for whatever was on my phone.

I unlock the screen and go to Whatsapp, and see so many messages from people I didn't know.

You are such a strong person keep fighting we all love you! You are my hero!-Lisa

I'm sorry I let those fake rumors go around. It was one of the worst decisions in my life and I realised it too late. I know one text isn't going to change anything, but I just wanted you to know that you are one of the bravest and strongest person that I know for coming back from it.-Momo

Don't listen to what that bitch says. Stay strong and true to yourself. We loved you like that Amelia. Let's get you back to your old, happy self.-Mark

I was a real bitch. I can't believe I believed everything Violet had to say about you and Zach's relationship. If i could go back in time, I would slap myself and her even harder because you genuinely don't deserve this any of this.-Joy