I'm not afraid of doctors for reasons like "I don't want to become autistic because of shots" or "I'm afraid of needles and surgery" or anything like that.
I'm afraid that a doctor will find something deadly and I won't have much time left.
As I said before, I'm not afraid of the action of dying. I'm afraid of the times surrounding the action of dying.
My uncle died in a gas station bathroom because of a heart attack.
My aunt died because of two types of cancer.
My mother had breast cancer.
I have a bone tumor.
There's some health problems in my family.
I don't want to get bad news that "you have deadly cancer" or have to go through what my mother went through with her breast cancer.
I don't want to be told that I could have an elevated risk of having a heart attack.
I don't want anything like that.
I just want to be healthy and alive for as long as possible.
Is that too much to ask for?
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phobophobia • all my fears
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