lost my head

Thirteen.

Anton went to the convention. Alone. To fetch us. Maybe?

"Alan. Cady. My god! What were you thinking?" Anton attacking us by rush.

"Whatever Aniston tells to the trios, it wasn't that bad!" Cady defending us.

"Or if I were you, I'm going back to the Camp!" he said, we're still staring at him "Now!"

We both jump in shock.

I feel it. Aniston informed a wrong language to them. But for now, I'm gonna get myself a good vices from Cady and Quinn. Don't ever listen or put into your heart of whatever Finn say. Defend myself through saying I believe in myself, in my works, in my capability. I get it now. It's really hard.

When we came back to the camp, Cady hold my hand. "Please defend us. Finn saves a thousand of hurtful words."

"I will" my reply.

~

Elle stand up from the seat when she saw us, worried. "God. Beautiful soul." I can't recognize her tone of voice whether she's mad or feel sorry. But when we came near, she hugs us.

"You're not mad?" I say directly to her ears but didn't hug her back. She simply nod.

"Two weirdos." she whispers

Cady and I looks at our team leader feeling sorry. We waited him to speak but he exactly waiting for us to speak first.

"Okay, TL. I'm sorry. We're sorry, really." Cady speak.

"I understand you. You did the best for our Team!" he said.

"Easy breezy? I mean, that's it? No sermonize, rant or anything?" said Cady.

"Yes. I thank you, and--" he's shaking his head.

At the same time, some members abruptly gone. It's now Finn, Cady, Joe and I. Even Elle walks out.

He looks up at me. "Finn, whatever she said to the trios I believe it's not true. Edited, full edited, scripted!"

"I still don't understand why"

"Why, what?"

"Why you accept the deal with Cady when you know its cheating?"

I see his face reddish, I pace the room and gaze at Joe crossing her arms furrowing to Cady worried about whatever I will say.

"I didn't do any cheat, TL. Selling rejected works isn't cheating. It's called prove them you believe in your work. Whether they think it's a mess or cool."

He looks behind me, "Will you give us a minute, please?" I stare at them, they nod and walks out at the Cabin. I look back at him and he now stands up and facing me, he brush his face like he still don't understand my elaboration "You know why you act like that? Because you don't accept people's perspectives to you. You don't believe of whatever positive they are saying to you. You must wanted to listen to those negatives. Because all you think is yourself! You think you're the only person who has a problem. You think you're holding this trash,..bush..crash planet!" Finn say.

"I'm not being selfish here. But, shouldn't you be get mad at Cady and not me? Because if someone's here know the rules and regulations better than I am, it's her. I am new here, Fi--TL. I-I don't know why you so mad at me." I shook my head.

Finn rubs his face. One more speech from him, I might exploit. "I don't know, Alan. I don't know too. I'm so mad and there's nothing I could do to be the best here. This is such a failure." walks back and forth.

"Isn't it you're the one who thought me not to think I'm a failure? A loser and a freak?" I paused, he turned back his face to me and stares so serious. "if you're feeling down, your members may be too."