My hands are shaking.
My lungs are full of smoke.
My head is full of nonsense,
And I really need a toke.
I'm down to my last ashes,
Without a cigarette to spare.
I sigh and lay my head down,
prepared for tonight's nightmare.
I know I sound depressing,
And like every other teen,
But I'm tired of feeling hopeless.
I've forgotten all of my dreams.
Days feel like hours,
And nights, they're all amiss.
Among the fallen ashes,
Are all the boys I've kissed.
My heart yearns for a lover,
To show me the way
To be a happy person,
But it's all just the same.
I'm tired of feeling nothing,
And I'm tired of feeling sad.
Everything's so pointless.
When did I get so bad?
I used to laugh and play games
With friends and family.
Now I'm in shambles,
I'm full of shame.
Is this all I'll ever be?
My heart is shattered,
Yet I'm sitting here quite numb.
I don't feel the pain as much,
And everything's so dumb.
Perhaps I'll try another,
And throw my body to the masses,
Because I only feel their love
When I'm pressed against their mattress.
My life is a wreck
I know this to be true,
But I'll sleep away the pain
With a new boy at my hips.
Perhaps the next one is you?
How did I end up like this?
