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Chapter Thirteen
Your brother had found me today. He said you weren't doing well. It's been only nearly three months without you.
I didn't even realize how long it's been, he told me for seventeen weeks you've been eating little to nothing. If you did eat you'd throw it up at midnight.
He told me you haven't been sleeping well either. Said you had dark circles under your eyes similar to mine.
He insisted I talk to you. Talk to you? Did you want that? I know jay wanted us to get back together because I was what he knew his entire life.
I couldn't do that to you. I couldn't cause you pain anymore. If seeing my face would cause you grief then why would I put you through that?
I didn't want us to end, as much as I pushed you away I never expected you to actually go. I worked in an auto body shop.
He said your car needed an oil change and you accidentally hit the front of your car with a tree.
I didn't really believe the accident part, he wouldn't even look me in the eye as he said it. Grace, you need to get help.
I want to see you laugh to smile again, I don't want to have a picture of you in my head looking more miserable than me.
That's just another weight being placed on my heart. I don't think my heart can sink any further down in my body. It's reaching its lowest point.
I thought you'd be happier, I thought you'd find a man and already be dating. Then in a few months, I'll get a notice saying I was invited to your wedding and somewhere down that road you'd be pregnant.
I want a baby, Gracie. I wanted one with you so bad, I just didn't know if I'd be a good father figure.
You know I grew up fatherless and I know you did as well. So don't go and tell me I don't have a right to be scared.
You kept pushing and I just stopped. I stopped and grace I'm sorry I didn't fight for you. I wish I told you I love you more.
I wish we could have been more civil about our wants and needs. I wish I would have swallowed my pride like I did in college and asks you to marry me.
Truth be told I have the ring grace it was hidden in my pillowcase. That day when you were taking off the sheets of the pillow and I yelled at you to stop.
I was only worried you'd ruin your own surprise. I don't know what I was waiting for. I don't know why I let stress get to me and go to weed to solve my problem.
I'm sorry I allowed alcohol to consume my life, I'm sorry I became the person you despised most in this world.
I didn't want us to end like this. This is a small bump in the road and we need a little more gas to get over it.
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I walked into you a little while after seeing your brother by awhile I mean like a month possibly?
So now it was currently 4months with no communication so you can imagine the awkwardness.
I walked into an ice cream parlor where I saw you alone. You were drinking a strawberry milkshake. We talked for a while that was until your date showed up.
Luke Hemmings, I didn't quite understand what you saw in him. He was a gentleman that's for sure.
He was making his way into the NBA. I saw him on the tv a couple times.
A year had passed after that, we were on speaking terms. We'd text each other and call sometimes. I just wanted to make sure you were okay.
During that year though I came across the basketball channel. I saw Luke on tv playing I got a glance of you in the front row watching.
At half everything was silent, all of a sudden a love song came on and that's when I finally got it. Luke walked up to you and got on his knee.
I couldn't really make out what he was saying but the announcers made a suggestion he proposed. The way you squealed and wrapped your arms around him I knew for a fact that's what he did.
I just couldn't believe it, again Luke had you wrapped around his finger.
