rhapsodic thoughts

patience

old poem i've been wanting to publish and finally it was about time. this is one of many, expect updates again! thank you for the lil bits of support i had before i stopped posting. :)

you're not afraid.

you never were.

now everything is falling together

ah, but not the world.

they're all against you.

oh, but can't you see?

i can't please everybody!

so let me freaking be!

i honestly have done no wrong.

or have i, oh do let me know.

now if so, show me what i've done!

instead of just saying it's got to go.

was it you? or you? who said it! who said it!

one month ago. deleted. two week after. deleted.

sometimes i agree

but maybe just not yet

but trust me, it'll be soon

be patient. alright?

... now it's two weeks later.

happy now?

i can't spit sunshine anymore

i've simply run out of it

now it's just a sea down my cheeks

and there's tears washing over

it's been so long since the last time

i've broken down in a shower

but now it's a silly routine 

one which i've gotten used to at random hours

now i'll move on, it's not a bother

just like i always do.

jade, i said i'd tell you first.

and that— i will.

be patient.

i didn't need you to tell me it was over.

or her. or him? 

who was it? who said it? i might never know.

well, at least you finally got what you wanted.

happy now?

hell, i know i'm not.

or am i?

i can't seem to figure it out.

something in my brain... keeps me from breaking inside

is it someones smile?

is it that someones laugh?

hush, it's just a small little distraction.

is it another persons support?

all the above.

anyways, i made the right decision. i know it.

and you! you. you didn't make me do it.

// lil story behind this obviously, but only few will know if they care to ask and if i'm willing to deliver. :)