The Torture Tour

Chapter 19

I haven't heard or seen Michael for a year and a half. I didn't keep in touch with any of the other guys cutting all of them off completely. I left that day on a flight with Harry. He has been here with me through it all. We are nothing but really good friends. The thought of any one but Michael touching me making me sick to my stomach. Today we are going to the best children's hospital in the u.s. Bretley is having some tests run. Harry took a short break from his tour to be here with me. Rumors have leaked out about Bretley possibly having cancer. It is also rumored that Harry stole me from Michael and he has been labeled a home wrecker. I have been called a slut because Bretley is rumored to be Harry's. We have kept our silence not trying to silence any of the rumors.

Bretley calls Harry daddy because he is the only dad that he knows. Harry's name is on his birth certificate. He asked his name to be put there. I know that one day he is holding onto hope that I will move on from Michael giving him a chance. I try not to feel too guilty about it because I made sure that he knows where I stand. Michael was it for me. There won't be another guy in my life ever.

We pull up to the hospital. I walk around to the back to unbuckle Bretley from his car seat. He is such a happy baby. He had my blonde curls, but the rest is all Michael down to the way his hair sticks out everywhere.

Harry takes him from me while I grab Bretley's bag. He has to stay over night in the hospital. I haven't been able to eat or sleep since his pediatrician ordered the tests. If my sweet baby dies they might as well bury me with him. He is the only reason that I haven't sunk into the blackness of depression. Losing Michael I lost myself. The only emotions I feel are numbness and love for our beautiful son.

Wren I hear a voice behind me call. I know that voice anywhere and I immediately tense. I finally turn around. Luke what are you doing here?

I know what Michael said about you and Harry isn't true and when I heard about the baby being sick I knew that I needed to be here for you.

And the other guys?

They believe everything Michael told them, and they may kind of hate you now.

I lose everything and Michael doesn't lose a damn thing.

He lost you and he hasn't been the same since you left.

I don't want to hear about Michael. I see enough of him in all the papers telling what girl he is fucking now. He moved on and I am trying to do the same so can you please leave. It was good to see you, but I don't want you here. It hurts too much to see you.

I will go. Promise if there is anything that I can do that you will call me Luke says giving me his number.

I take the piece of paper with no intentions of ever using it before me and Harry walk into the hospital with Bretley.

It was a long day of testing with Bretley. Harry there for me the whole time. Harry has thought of Bretley as his own from the beginning. He went through the whole pregnancy with me and the emergency c-section that I had to have because I got preclampsia and almost died. He was in the delivery room with me the whole time holding my hand and being a rock for me even though he was scared that he was going to lose both of us.

You need to get some rest Harry says from beside me on the pull out couch where I am sitting watching Bretley sleep.

I am scared if I go to sleep I am going to lose him.

He is going to be fine. He is too much like his mother to give up the fight that easily.

Get up so I can let out the couch. I will be here with you all night.

That night without Wren's or Harry's knowledge Michael snuck into the hospital room standing over Bretley's bed watching him sleep. When Luke came back telling him that Bretley looked just like him and that he may be sick Michael just had to see for himself. Regret filling him he leaves the room a few minutes later after looking at Wren and Harry together in the bed. Wren is curled up in a ball and Harry is wrapped around her like he is protecting her from the world. The regret fills him again. He knew that he was wrong when he was saying the things that he said. The things that he and Harry did together and the way it made him feel scared him. So he pushed both of them out of his life permanently. He knew that he was on a path of self destruction but he can't seem stop because to him life is not worth living anymore.

Luke was waiting for him outside the hospital. Are you going to be okay Michael?

I haven't been okay since I drove both of them away. I have missed a year and a half of my son's life being stupid. I don't even know what his name is and according to rumor Harry's name is on the birth certificate. I can't blame anyone but myself for everything that has happened.

You will never be able to move on from this if you don't get some closure and neither will Wren. She deserves to be truly happy with Harry. He loves her a lot. You can tell from the way he looks at her, and Wren feels the same way, but she is too scared to let herself feel love again.

Are you sure that she loves him?

Yeah I am sure. Both of them deserve to be happy Michael and you do to it's time to let go and move on.

I will talk to Wren and Harry see if they are willing to meet with you so they can get some closure.

You're right it is time to let her go. I am going to come clean with the guys. Wren doesn't deserve to be hated by them and our son deserves to have all the uncles that he can have.

You are going to follow Wren's wishes with Bretley or I will kick your ass for ruining her life again.

I was referring to myself as one of the uncles. I don't deserve the right to be called his father. Harry is his father.

Your right, but he deserves to know the truth one day when he is old enough to understand everything.

See if they will be willing to meet me for coffee sometime soon. I need to be alone for awhile. I have a lot to think about.

I am here if you need me. I am still your friend no matter how much you fucked up your life.

I wish I could go back in time and redo that day all over again. I never thought that I would fall for two people one of them being a guy.

I had a feeling that the three of you were together, but then everything blew up and I still don't know the real story.

Me and Harry made love to each other then we both took Wren and claimed her as ours. I don't know who kissed who first. The moment that me and Harry had together is one of my best memories. It was beautiful and intense at the same time. He filled the hole that I never realized that me and Wren had in our life, but then I threw it all away because I was too much of a coward to except what I felt.

We will meet up with the guys later for a drink or two so you can come clean on what really happened between you, Wren, and Harry.

I will catch you later Michael says walking off.

Luke stared after Michael before picking up his phone and texting Harry about meeting Michael for closure. Feeling bad for everyone involved in the situation Luke heads to the nearest coffee shop knowing he won't be getting anymore sleep tonight.