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Ch. 33
Agile Recklessness
Justin Bieber
I don’t know what made me do it.
I don’t know what in hell made me get up on that stage on live national television at the fucking American Music Awards and proclaim my love for Mandy Nash and how I fucked up so badly.
But now that I had...
I felt extremely liberated.
Sure, I’d gotten my ass nearly whooped from Scooter and the rest of my team, who couldn’t believe what I’d done - my little display had caused quite the heyday for the press, who were printing piece after piece about what happened, dissecting every little word I’d said. The world was practically in an uproar about the fact that the Justin Bieber had cussed 2414185 times on national television, along with admitting to sleeping around, partying, and being in love with someone nobody in the world even knew existed.
But quite honestly, I didn’t give a fuck.
All that mattered was that I had finally come clean.
Practically every little thing that had been killing me inside and nearly making my life unbearably miserable had now been released, spoken aloud and uplifted from my shoulders.
I’d never felt better.
Well...almost.
I still felt an unbelievably gnawing sense of guilt as to what I’d done to Mandy, and the fact that she hated me and I had no idea if she’d evenseen any of that was enough to make me go crazy all over again.
I just wanted her to understand.
I wanted her to see how truly sorry I was, and to believe me.
But I’d done all that I could do now, and if announcing what I’d done and apologizing over national television - therefore admitting to virtually the entire world of my mistakes and the fact that I was in love with her - wasn’t enough, then nothing would be.
It was as simple as that.
I could sense people around me tensing up as they noticed me sauntering into school. Many of them nudged their friends and muttered something. Several others called out greetings to me or waved, gestures I responded to.
Don’t ask me why, but for some reason, I felt slightly happy.
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