Forever alone(complete)

Loving

I feel like my heart is going to fly to heaven right now.

They say that love only happens once, and to treasure the one you love.

I was falling, and I'm falling hard.

Every moment goes through thinking about him.

It's hard to not just go to him and talk.

I even rehearse how to say hi in the morning.

Ha, I know it would never work out, but a girl can dream right?

I daydream during class, I think all my thoughts are filled.

Maybe one day it would go away, cause I get heart ache just thinking that he may hate me.

If he does, I don't know what I would do.

I guess I would have to live in the moment.

I had a weird thing of making a good friend, and then I do something that makes them hate me.

And even worse, I don't even remember what I did.

I guess I have STML. Which is Short Term Memory Loss.

Maybe I do. I never realised.

But there are two things I can never forget.

My friends, and my crush.

I know I sound like a helpless or hopeless romantic, but then that's life.

I can't simply imagine that something would happen and poof, there you go.

Happy ending.

Nope, this is reality.

No one said life was easy.

No one said that you can get what you want.

So keep dreaming.

It's my fave thing to do, it's like life flew away, and you can do anything in your dreams.

Making cloud angels, what am I saying?

I really need to focus.

What the hell are cloud angels?

I felt like I couldn't breathe properly, the normal breath wasn't going in.

My knees were wobbly, like I could fall any second.

It's a feeling you don't feel with anyone else.

But it's nice, in a way.

It's nice to like someone, other than celebrities and other famous people.

You like someone for who they are, and not for what they look like.

He called me an idiot to like him, but I like someone who's open, and always takes a risk.

I had a fuzzy feeling inside, it was like I was sitting with a hot chocolate on a snowy day.

I sighed, imagining that there was a mini cloud out the window.

I was daydreaming again, and I don't think I'm going to Earth anytime soon.

I felt a smile come on my face, I felt happy.

You know, its nice to be happy after being in depression for a long time.

He makes me happy, even though its an awkward friendship for me.

I felt like sometimes it's ok, that we're just friends, I'm having severe mood swings at the moment. Plus, he would have hell liking me..

Maybe that's why I act so crazy one minute, and I'm ready to cry the next.

Ha, I really don't get growing up sometimes.

I want to be smart and tough, but I also want to be my childish self, always crazy.

I'm not joking, it's weird for me.

But all I know, this crush isn't going away anytime soon.