Haikyuu Texts

Acknowledge my existence.

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Yams:
Get ready for a spam. Because I'm going to vent (aka whine about my life)

Yams:
Also sorry for this :))

Yams:
So I feel distant and I feel like my friends (who aren't in the volleyball team) hate me. They always make plans whenever I'm around them and I pretend like I don't hear them or like I'm not paying attention . I try my best to listen to them and give them advice, but do they ever listen to me whenever I have a problem? No. They ignore me, they act like I'm invisible. Oh I have a problem? Too bad, I should solve it by myself. I hurt my wrist? Oh too bad, since Noya has a bunch of bruises, because according to them he's more important than me. I'm sick? Too bad, no one cares. They make feel so useless.

Yams:
Am I not good enough for them? I always listen to them, I do what they tell me, I try my best. They don't even acknowledge my existence! During PE I told them  that I was having a stomachache, they just ignored me and we continued walking the track. They only talk to me when it's convenient for them. They only talk if they need money, or help with something. Sometimes they just ask me to help them cheat and honestly I'm getting tired.

Yams:
One time I was crying and they told me to grow up and stuff, bUT then someone else started crying and all of the sudden they ask them if they're okay and if they need anything. That person, let's give them a random name,, Uhm Kira. When I met Kira she told me I was bad at volleyball. I didn't even answer back, because if I did her cousin Uhm Nayoung would say something back to me.

Yams:
Which is why I'm clingy. I just want someone to hold me tight and tell me that I'm actually worth it. I want someone to ask me if I'm okay, if I need anyone to talk to, if I want a hug. I just want someone to acknowledge my existence.

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Maybe you should stop talking to them, that's always the best option. Just ignore them and find one friend that's loyal to you. One friend that will appreciate you.  I just wanted to say that, even tho you randomly texted I will never ignore you.

Yams:
That means so much to me thanks|
That means so much to|
That means so|
That|
I will do that.

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I'm sorry for not updating, if you don't know I'm a freshman and I'm still not used to high school. Well hopefully you enjoyed the chapter — I'm sorry, I used this for venting 😅