can't fake it anymore

him

i woke up to the sound of my alarm blaring in my ear cause my phone was right next to my head . but when i went to turn off the alarm i noticed it was my last alarm , which means IM ALMOST LATE . i rushed to get dressed so i grabbed the first thing i saw. light ripped skinny jeans and a Nirvana shirt that had a couple rips i it . i rushed to the bathroom and i didn't have time to do my hair or makeup so i put my hair up in a ponytail and pulled the little strands out and brushed my teeth . i wasn't ugly or anything just i felt better with makeup. i have a small amount of freckles and since i didn't have enough to show them off i was embarrassed of them so i hated the idea of showing them but today i'm gonna have to suck it up. i ran downstairs and opened the front door just to be greeted by Grayson .
" wha- what are you doing here ? " i asked shocked .
" babe , damn you look good . uh shoot actually i came here to walk to you to school . " he said kinda loud .
" why are you yelling ? " i asked raising an eyebrow just to see him nudge his head to the side to show me that Jack was outside his house . we've been neighbors since we were kids which is one of the reasons it was so easy to be together , we always saw each other . just thinking about the way we used to be makes me wanna cry . but i can't. and i won't.
" oh " i said stepping out. we started walking towards school and when we pasted Jack , Grayson did something i never thought he'd do , he grabbed my hand . i looked at our hands and then back at him and then back at our hands again . " are you blushing ? " he said laughing , but not the funny laugh , the asshole laugh . " no it's just kinda cold " i said . covering my face with my hair a little .
walking past Jack like this was awkward, just this situation in general was awkward. i've never held hands with anyone other than Jack ... tbh i felt kinda free . i noticed Jack look at us and he looked upset . i can't believe this is working . soon i can " break up " with grayson and jack will be mine again , everything will be perfect .
           * time passes *
we get to school and as soon as we step in he lets go of my hand and walks away . wow , not even a goodbye , what a gentleman. i thought and i rolled my eyes walking to my locker. surprisingly i wasn't late, i got ready way faster than i thought . i got to my first class on time and waited for my best friend Jordan to get here . she's always been my best friend , since we were kids , i have no clue what i'd do without her . she walked in and sat next to me but she looked mad.
" what's going on with you and grayson ?! " she whispered yelled . i put my hand over her mouth as the bell rang , i was about to answer when the door opened causing everyone to jerk their heads towards it to see who walked in. of course it was grayson, and of course his hair was messy and he had a hickey on his neck. " nothing ... nothing's going on with us " i said playing with my pencil trying to act like nothing happened . it's not that it hurt , it's that he always completely blew the whole thing up . idiot.