can't fake it anymore

getting closer

" oh " he said . i didn't really expect him to say much , like how do you respond in the correct way , there isn't one . we sat there for a second just looking at each other when i yawned and he noticed cause he laid back and motioned for me to come lay down next to him. i scooted next to him and laid down on his pillow. we sat in silence, a good silence. everything was still , quiet, and calm. it felt good. to not have to think so hard. to feel okay. suddenly i had the urge to do anything but sleep. " let's do something fun " i said sitting up. he sat up slowly and chuckled " well what do you wanna do ?" he said. " i don't know , you're the fun one "
it was true , i was just the nerd and he was the cool guy who was always doing something fun , me , not so much. he started leaning towards the ground and pulled a bottle out from under his bed and said " come on , you can be fun. sometimes " he said laughing while he opened the bottle. i didn't know what it was but for some reason i just followed his lead an drank it. it burned the first couple of times and he laughed at the face i made but soon it wasn't so bad. we laughed at everything. had a good time. talked about anything that came to mind when suddenly a question slipped from his mouth that clearly he didn't wanna say because after he asked it he slapped his hand over his mouth. " what did your parents say to you " he said looking me in the eyes. i dont know if i want to answer , i mean i trust him but that's not just something you tell anymore ,  but i was also drunk so everything i was thinking didn't matter " um they just called me a mistake and stuff like that. you know the usual hating parent thing " i said grabbing the bottle from his hands and taking a big drink from it. i hated talking about this. the mood instantly went from amazing to me wanting to cry. and i did. i started to cry. " hey i'm sorry i asked , don't listen to them , you're amazing " he said grabbing me. he laid the bottle on the ground and laid us back. i had my head on his chest and his hands were running through my hair slowly. " sorry i ruined our fun " i whispered as i looked up at him , " hey don't say that , you needed to talk about it , it's okay . " he said as he looked me in the eyes. who would of known how well gray and i would get along. he was like a best friend to me now , past me would of never in a million years thought this would happen. she would of even bet money that it wouldn't , a lot of money. " thanks for being a good friend " i whispered as i started to drift off , " shh just sleep " gray said " just sleep " the second time he said more to himself because soon we both were asleep.