can't fake it anymore

returned

i woke up the faint sound of someone slamming the door. it sounded far away so it must of been the front door. i jumped and woke up grayson making him rush in his place. " who is it ? " i asked him but he quickly answered with a " shh " i did what i was told and sat quietly until ethan walked into grayson's room. instantly there was tension. ethan had a thing for me a while who when jack and i were together but now he just ignores me. " wha- what's she doing here " ethan asked grayson trying to sound mad but you could tell he was embarrassed. " we are science partners so we wanted an early start in the project " grayson said looking at me gesturing for me to play along with his eyes. " yeah , i came over to see what we needed and what we already had " i said looking more at his chin than his eyes. whenever i lie i can't look someone in the eyes or i give it away. he seemed to believe my lie and nodded his head and left the room closing the door behind him. " that was close " i said standing up from my side of the bed and putting my shoes on. " where are you going ? " he asked grabbing his phone and unlocking it. " home i guess " i just shrugged and continued to get my stuff together. i couldn't find my phone for a minute but when i finally spotted it it was on the table next to gray. i was
too lazy to walk all the way around the bed so i decided to lean over grayson to grab it. " what are you doing " he asked while laughing a bit. " i'm getting my phone duh " as i started to pull back he grabbed my sides and started to tickle me endlessly. i've always been super sensitive when it came to tickling so it didn't take much for me to laugh and kick. i started kicking and pushing and trying to get him off of me but nothing seemed to work so i just let it happen. " gray - gray sto-" i tried getting out but laughter broke every word. after what felt like forever he finally stopped let me go . i punched him in the shoulder playfully " ow what's was that for " he said placing a hand over the red mark i left on his arm " for tickling the hell out of me " i said laughing while holding onto my sides. we both laughed and sat with each other for a minute until i felt him looking at me. i felt embarrassed and insecure so i finally spoke up " well i should get going , see you at school monday " i said standing up and walking towards the door. i grabbed the door handle and started to turn it when i felt the need to thank him. " thanks for being a good friend last night " i said half turning around to face him. what i gave him a small smile and started walking towards the front door. having that much fun with grayson made me think about all the times i had with jack. every friday i'd come to his house and watch a movie and half way through when we both got bored of the movie he'd start tickling me and eventually kiss me to shut me up cause his parents were trying to sleep. it felt good. and i felt at home with jack on those nights. but grayson didn't kiss me. he didn't make me feel at home. he made me feel like the new friend in the friend group going to a sleep over, you feel comfortable but not at home. but i think that's because we're just now becoming friends. i took my time to get to the door and when i finally did i heard
footsteps behind me. i turned around to see ethan running towards me. " wait y/n , i need to talk to you about stefan " he said. hearing the name " stefan " made my heart beat faster and my eyes widen. " is he back ..? " i asked him with my voice cracking. i felt myself becoming more and more nervous and anxious for his answer. " yes , and he's looking for you ".