(Stuck in) The Middle

Song to listen to while reading:

Be OK - Ingrid Michelson

Cheyenne

It's been 4 years since I've seen or heard from my mom.

The last time I even saw her name was the signature she used to give Alex custody of Cadence.

That's been going pretty well also. I've been having some pregnancy scares lately, but I'm not worried.

My fiancé is the most powerful drug lord in all of Washington.

Yeah, I know. Turns out Uncle Radford had a lot of unfinished business to take care of and it costed him his life.

So, he left everything to Alex and I.

He and I are the most feared couple in our city.

It's all so surreal because we're not even in our mid-twenties yet!

Cadence is becoming just like Alex: Charming, handsome, and smart. Sometimes I have to remind him

"Do not follow in our footsteps, you need to stay in school and go to college."

All he does is nod. He has told me on numerous occasions that Alex is the dad he's never had, and I'm grateful for that.

Now I know selling every drug that you can think of is not very safe, but I've changed since I have gotten into it.

All I have to do is say one word and I'll get whatever I want. Mostly because everyone knows not to fuck with me.

I could have them, or their family killed in under five seconds. (I've never killed anyone's family)

You know, there are a lot of perks to having a rich SO (significant other).

I get my hair done every other week, I get my nails done on Fridays, and I even have my own personal trainer.

But, with anything, there are some cons. Getting caught, explaining your life to others; You know, normal shit.

Nevertheless, the only friends I do have and actually trust are Alex's brothers.

They have helped us out so much in the past, I had to keep them around.

Cameron helps us with finances and Rhett helps with raising Cadence.

Now, what I mean by "helping with finances" I don't mean helping us pay. Hell no! I mean managing and smart spending. With the money we have, we don't need any help paying.

Rhett helps with Cadence because he already has 2 kids and a wife. All at only 22! Sheesh!

Anyway, back to the pregnancy scares.

I've had so many false alarms, it's not even funny, and come to think of it, I can't even count how many on both of my hands! Wait...not on my toes either.

I guess ever since my "first time" I haven't been able to stop. I almost feel like sex gives me something to live for, other than Alex and Cadence.

Yeah, I know what you're thinking: She can't possibly be sleeping with only Alex.

Well, I am and I plan on only sleeping with Alex for as long as I live. There is no one else I rather be with honestly.