The Princess Fangirl: Re-crowned

This Ended Up a Rant/Complaints Chapter

I apologize in advance for complaining.

Me: *sees Mark and Jack are both going on tour*

*is excited*

*remembers there is no chance in all heck that I could go*

*is bitterly excited*

I love that their doing tours and I'm genuinely super happy for the people who get to go. But it stings a little. I've never been to a concert or tour or anything like that and they seem really fun. I've seen, like, one play at the community theater and some play skit things at my grandma's church.

How do people even get the tickets?! I still have trouble grasping the concept that there are parents who know their kids watch Mark and Jack and are okay with it. Same with Dan and Phil. I'm pretty sure if my parents knew I'd have my Internet taken away forever. And if they knew about the existence of Jimmy Casket, or even just the blood in Gmod, my days of watching VT would be over forever.

And if they heard most Twenty Øne Piløts songs...

I'm slightly bitter, and jealous of the people who can be blatant with their interests. I'm happy for them, but a teensy-weensy bit jealous. And the people who have friends or people IRL they can talk to about their interests.

Okay, this is turning into a self-pity party. I didn't mean for that. Sorry.

You ever have those teachers who just smack their lips really loud? And it just makes you want to throttle someone? You know when teachers get all passive aggressive about some thing and it makes you want to freaking break something?

My homeschool program used to be pretty good. One day of actual class with other kids, one day of virtual class (like a big conference call between all the students and the teacher), and the rest is just online lessons. The one day of normal class didn't start until noon and we got to do fun activities. It was a very small program when we started, back when I was just starting 6th grade, and it was good.

It's been getting gradually more like a normal school.

The workload has increased by a lot. For some reason my Humanities teacher is trying to fit a whole years worth of English into the first semester while also giving is numerous history assignments and has this stupid points system and AHHHH!

Math is better this year because I have a new teacher. But kids in lower grades still have to deal with my old math teacher. He's rude and condescending and he doesn't realize how much so he is so he never apologizes or anything. He'll say things like "How are you not getting this? It's so simple!" TO THE ENTIRE CLASS! The way he had his grading system set up last year made no sense and basically everyone failed the class. Even my kind of friend who was ahead in math and passed pretty much all her tests with at least a B!

And now we essentially have a normal five days of class. Three days where we have to drive into town and sit in the over-air conditioned classroom from nine to either noon or two. I have to get up at, like, seven thirty so we can be there on time. And we don't even do anything! I could do the same fricking stuff at fricking home and probably get more done because there are fewer fricking distractions! And my parents aren't happy about it either. They have to get up and drive me there and it seriously stresses my mom out. She's always worried we'll be late. And my dad also doesn't see the point of me going when I could be doing my actual lessons at home instead of that crap!

And the other two days are virtual class. Those start at eight twenty and end at, like, one. Granted, there is a break between math and humanities, but their just time wasters! I have a ton of lessons and projects piled on me and THESE STUPID CLASSES JUST TAKE UP TIME! I HAVE OTHER THINGS I NEED TO DO! I AM OVERWHELMED A BIT HERE AND YOU FRICKING TEACHERS ARE NOT HELPING! IT'S THE FIRST FRICKING QUARTER AND I'M BEHIND!

It's so much, we have so many projects at once! And part of why we did homeschool was so we could work school around our schedule. But we can't do that anymore! It's inflexible! I just want to scream but I can't! As I'm typing this on the inside I'm yelling and am just angry but on the outside I could not seem less interested. My frustration isn't registering with my face or voice box.

Sorry. This is all really stupid and I should just keep it to myself. But I just needed to rant. This is all nothing, I have no right to complain when tons of people have it way worse. Sorry.

Whatever.

See you, Fanfares.