Fix Me

Chapter 10

So we just finished eating and as I was heading up to change my clothes for our outing I remembered something.

"What should I wear?"

He looked at me with a knowing look.

"Trust me I took care of everything" I didn't really know what he meant by that and just as I was about to ask him he started walking away. Just as I was about to say something he stopped in front of my room and opened the door. there I could see a black string bikini and coverup and a bag laying on my bed.

When did he put that there? I thought. It must've been when he got up to "use the washroom".

***

I walked down to see a smiling Cameron wearing some shorts. Just shirts.

Trying to hide the blush at his body I decided to just play it off with teasing because, hey, that's what friends do right?

"What? You ran out of shirts already?"

To that he gave me a playful smirk.

"No but since we're going to the beach I thought why not."

So he's gonna be like that all day. This really isn't helping my friends thing. Why do abs and those damn v-shaped muscles do this to girls. So either he's mocking me or completely oblivious to the state I'm in right now because he just said, "don't worry I have a shirt to change into later on once it gets cooler outside"

Then he just walked out the door leaving me to follow.

He said he wants me to trust him. I wonder what he's going to do to earn that trust.

***

As we were driving I could smell the ocean. The water. I remember going to the ocean. Back when my family was still in tact. Back when I actually had one. I remember my mom and me building a sandcastle, I remember my dad lifting me up and running into the waves. Laughing, smiling, really enjoying ourselves. And each other.

But now as I look to my left I see someone else. Someone who really seems to care about me. Someone who cares about me and makes me smile. One of the greatest people I know. One if the greatest friends I could've ever had.

We arrived at the beach and we're now laying out a blanket on the sand. It's warm with a little breeze.

This place is amazing. People walking their dogs, couples strolling on the sand, and family's eating ice cream. Everyone's happy. Smiling. Laughing. Just...happy.

It's like Cameron knows what I'm thinking because a second later he blocks my view of the little girl playing in the ocean with her dog.

"Hey are you ok?" he looks at me with a concerned look.

I shook my head riding myself of those thoughts.

"Yeah I'm fine"

I took off my coverup and suddenly felt self conscious. I've never been in a bikini before. I was always nervous about my scars. They're not visible now but you can still see some faint marks all over. Especially the ones I recently caused on my arms. And suddenly, I'm not really in a beach-y mood.

~Cameron's P.O.V~

She's holding onto her arms. She's looking down at her scars. I put my finger under her chin and pulled her head up so she could look at me.

"Don't worry about the scars. You look fine just forget about everything for a while and let go."

I hope I sounded sincere enough.

She smiled.

It was small. It didn't go up to her eyes. But she smiled. That was enough.

Then a thought occurred.

"Come on I want to show you something"

I turned and started walking but when I turned to look at her she just stood there confused. I reached out my hand for her to take it and follow. Cautiously she started walking towards me.

Right behind me as we made our way up a rocky path on the side of the beach. It's behind a bunch of trees so no one really notices it. As we got closer I turned towards Jade and told her to close her eyes.

"What?" she asked.

I walked behind her and covered her eyes. We started walking again when finally we reached the spot. I uncovered her eyes and I could see her slightly gape at the view.

~Jade's P.O.V~

There's one word to describe what I'm seeing. Amazing.

This place is close enough to the beach that I can hear the waves but far enough that I can't see it very well beyond the trees.

We're in a cave but, it's like the walls are glistening. It's dark the further in you go but the sun shines bright at the edge. If you stand at the edge though, you just see water. No sand, no people, nothing. Just a never ending layer of blue.

I turned towards Cameron in awe.

"Where did you find this place?"

"When I was around 7 I came here with my mom. I got lost and found this cliff and thought, if I climb it I might get a better view and find her. I found this place and, I don't know, it just stuck"

He's only mentioned his mom once in the time I've lived with him so he having shared this memory means a lot to me.

I looked at the ground as I asked:

"Can you tell me about her? Your mom"

Now as I looked up at him I could see he was kind of stunned by my question. then he shyly smiled.

"Okay" he whispered.

"Okay" I smiled and sat down.