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chapter 20 *ೃ

Kiara

"I'm glad you're getting better" auntie Diana says

"yeah" I say as I smiled

"so, it's okay if your family visits you?" she asks

"i- uh. I'm not sure but I- I really do miss them. it's just, just- I'm afraid to see the family I broke" I struggle to put my words

"look Kiara, it's not your fault okay?" she says as I nodded

"I'm going to cook with Camilla, okay?" she says and smiled

"okay, try not to burn the house" I say as she giggles

I started thinking and decided to write, since I'm good at pretending that I'm okay, a perfect title would be 'Deep Down'

"Deep down"
(by: Kiara)

'Hey! how are you?'
'I'm okay thank you!'
but deep down inside you,
you want to scream 'I need you'

'why you're not talking?'
'oh, nothing'
deep down I was screaming
suffering and overthinking

'I love your smile!'
'thankyou, i love your style '
because deep down, I need a tile
to cover everything for a while

'you should stay positive'
'yeah, and competitive'
deep down, no I can't, I'm negative
and I am too sensitive

'I'm not leaving you'
'I know, thank you'
deep down I was crying
asking, why are you lying?

'I will be here always'
'yeah, you never left these days'
deep down, you will find your ways
and leave me anyway.

those kind of conversion is a lie
I know you want to die
but instead we smile
because deep down, it's easier to hie.

I reread it, am I really getting better? or getting worst?

I walk to the kitchen to see them cooking and laughing,

how's princess?
is she okay?
does she missed me too?
did she forgive me already?
does she even remember me?

I miss my best friend so much, but she hates me

"hey Kiara, join us!" my auntie Diana says

"i- uh, can't cook. I mean, I don't know how" I say as they giggle

"we don't know too, shhh" Camilla says then giggle

"how do you guys survive?" I ask then giggle

"simple, we buy food" Diana says

"yeah, right" I say as I chuckle

"you know Kiara, kids nowadays use social medias. why don't you try it?" Camilla asks

"no, I'm good" I say

"at least if you want to try, we will going to buy you Phone and laptop" Diana says

"no, I don't wanna try it" I say as they nod their head

"I can't, I don't know how to use it" I honestly say

"we will teach you" they both says and we giggle

time passed by, we will now going to the mall.

month ago, I promise myself not to think twice about trying phone but here I am buying one.

Landon

we were packing some of our things that needed, my whole family will come but Princess' family couldn't go at the same time as mine but they will visit too, it's just we will go first

"I'm really sorry grandpa" I say as he tap my shoulder

"it's okay bud" he says

"mom, dad I'm really sorry. I'm sorry grandma" I say as they nod their heads and give me a quick hug

I walk outside to see my friends

"stay safe" Joshua says as I nod

"princess why have you been ignoring me?" I asks not being able to take the silent treatment she's giving me

she just shake her head and went inside the house, I saw her hug my mom, dad, and grand parents.

why is it bothering me that she's ignoring me, do I like Princess?

no it can't be. Kiara and her are best friends

"give her some time" Caroline says

"what?" I asks one more time

"she got really disappointed when she found out what you did to her best friend" Jacob says

"do you like my cousin?" Jacob asks

my eyes widen as my cheeks went bright red

"I swear if you hurt my cousin I will kill you" Jacob says making Caroline giggle

"just like what he said to my ex, but he didn't kill him" she says making Jacob roll his eyes making us all laugh

"Jacob likes Kiara" I say and smirk

"shut up!" Jacob says as Joshua's eyes went dark

"oops, I need to pack" I say as I left them

see you soon Kiara

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