Fragile. z.m

17.

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Zayn's P.O.V

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I had woken up. Last night was miserable. I managed to convince Liam that I had just been not used to the fast food, even though the hospital refeeding wasn't much of a difference. After being in inpatient treatment I definitely did not want to go back anytime soon. I just wanted to simply make it so I can stay out of the hospital. My weight was already down to 115lbs. (BMI: 16.0) Oops. I'll just drink a bunch next time.

My next doctor appointment is in 3 days, I hope they don't notice. Liam has been trying to make me eat. I pretend to eat and just never touch the food. I convinced him that it was his leftovers. Or if he makes me eat a meal I eat super healthy and I go on a run.

Last night, my heart rate got super low and Liam said that if it happened again that I would be "rushed" to the hospital. College was this fall. I decided to go online and register for what I wanted to do. I just chose my general studies for now, after being inpatient though I want to be an art therapist. I want to help various age ranges through their mental health struggle with showing that they are unique through art.

This experience led me to be more compassionate and really emphasize a persons feelings.

I went online and started checking emails from advisors.

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Liam P.O.V

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I was at my new job. I had become a personal trainer. I help struggling individuals with their fitness goals. Little does Zayn know I am creating a plan for him that will make him have this thin image, but he will grow and have healthy muscle development. I love Zayn, and I want the best for him so much.

I meet with clients at my own personal gym. I make good money but the hours and planning are strenuous.  I work with my cousin, she is a chef she makes protein bars and snacks and beverages that we sell in our gym. I am doing very well but I spend time worrying about Zayn all the time. I actually see a therapist now so I can explore my own feelings, it also helps me have an outlook on why Zayn is the way he is.

I was about to head to my therapy session. I stopped at a costa and got a hot chocolate.

I entered the room and my therapist Beth greeted me.
"Hello, Liam. How are you doing today?"
"Pretty good just doing some business errands."  She smiled.
"Wow sounds fun, how is that going?" She grabbed her notebook.
"Great I'm so excited. It's really getting a lot of press and views. Some celebrities already want to train with me."
"Wow, well I wish you luck Liam."
I smiled. "Okay so, how are you and Zayn?"
I breathed. "Good. He's been eating, at least I think. He only eats super healthy, such a salad or soup. I'm just scared that he isn't getting enough I mean he does take vitamins. Last night he was very bradycardic his heart rate was 42, I saw it because I bought him a Fitbit to track that. I told him that I would take him to the hospital.

"Well, Liam it sounds like you are very caring, I admire that about you, especially since you are starting your business and that you are working on bettering yourself, you have that wonderful characteristic about you. I love how you care about him. That is what makes a relationship work. I am overly joyed about that. But, if you are worrying about Zayn that will start to crash, make sure you're caring about yourself too. His body is probably tired of the hospital food and he is just trying to cope. Please don't let him get too low, but his weight will fluctuate so if you notice a loss/gain of 5lbs don't worry. His body is just adjusting to the diet. His heart will probably have problems, if he complains of chest pains/ or heart pain then yes you can take him, but when you threaten that immediately it makes him anxious because he thinks, "Oh, I'm going to get thrown into the woods again." You just have to understand how that feels in his mind. "Other than that just say "I feel like you are too low in your numbers, are you feeling okay? Anything I can do to help?'"

"Alright, I just worry ya know, I plan to marry this man and spend the rest of my life with him. I don't want to think about marrying him and then having to bury him soon after. That's why I worry."

"Okay, and aw Liam good for you! I just don't want you to overstress. That can make you more agitated or angry. You may feel like you can't control him. The best you can do is encourage the healthy behaviors, You convince him he looks good the way he is. The only person that can help Zayn and promise him a full recovery is himself."

"True thank you, and yeah when I feel like he's shutting me out I do my breathing and I just sit and think that it's not going to happen overnight, and honestly I just love him. I don't want to see him be hurt again."

"Good. Liam, I think you are on the right track."

Our session went quite well. I couldn't wait to go see Zayn for my lunch break....

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A/N:

Hello, I finally updated this story it's way simpler on my iPad. I'm in college as well. I had some family issues/ lack of motivation but I am trying to make an amazing comeback. I am in an Writing class. Hopefully my writing will improve and become better. All I care about is making my readers happy. I hope all of you still look at my account. All of you are free to message me with ideas/ etc. Thank you so much.

Much Love,

Ryna