Easy to Love You

"Yeah, why not, right?"

I'm bored as hell, trying not to talk to Emily or Noah, so I've sat with the kids while they colored and looked through pictures on my phone. The kids are sleeping now and we're still driving. Spencer's parents know something is up but they don't know what.
I'm listening to Daughtry, listening to Used To.
I find myself getting annoyed so I text Spencer.
Me: you know you used to give a shit what I wanted
He looks down at his phone. I hear him sigh, looking at me, and then he just locks his screen and sets the phone down.
Why isn't he answering me.
Me: ???
He looks down at the screen and then picks his phone up and starts typing.
My Romeo: I'm not going to fight. Ethan and Kendall aren't in here with us because they're not my parents kid. You are in here because I'm my parents kid. If that is so miserable, we can pull over and you can leave and go into Ethan and Kendall's RV. I give a shit what you want and I'm sorry your relationship with your sister is fucked up, but you're not the only one who is pissed off right now and since my bother hates me and my parents probably will soon too, I'd appreciate it if you're on my side.
Me: I'm on your side
My Romeo: then stop looking at me as the enemy
I stare at the message.
I guess I have been irritated with him.
I just put my head down on the table.
I'm angry. I'm angry at Emily for starting shit. I'm angry at myself for arguing with her. I'm angry for all of it.
I want to go into the RV with Kendall and Ethan and my Dad, but I don't want to leave Spencer in here.
I feel bad for taking my frustrations out on Spencer.
"I'm going to bed." I mutter.
There's four beds in bunk beds and a king sized bed in here. Spencer and I get the king and Eloise and Micah will sleep with us and Spencer and I get the edges. Declan and Luca get to sleep in a bunk, and Spencer's parents are going in the other bunk. Noah and Emily will sleep with Emma.
There's also a pullout couch.
I hate going to bed knowing Spencer and I are irritated with each other, but right now there isn't much of a choice.
Spencer doesn't even look at me when I announce I'm going to bed.
I just get up and walk into the tiny bedroom, pulling the curtain so they can't see me. The pillows are holding the kids so they don't fall.
I remove the one next to Luca and get into bed. He immediately shifts in his sleep, using my arm as a pillow. I kiss his head and just go on my phone.

Spencer

I'm mad.
No, I'm pissed.
I'm pissed that Emily is being a bitch to my wife. I'm pissed she ruined my one night I've had alone with my wife in years. I'm pissed because my brother's wife is a bitch. I'm pissed because my brother won't talk to me.
I'm pissed because once again, they're ruining my relationship with my wife.
I press the power button on my phone, looking down at the screen.
It's a picture of Juliet. It's the only thing that helped me through being away from her for so long. We were standing in a parking garage and she had Kendall's purse, which was Victoria secret in a black heart. She has on a tan trench coat with black buttons and she's smiling, looking down at the kids. There were too far away to get in the photo, but her blonde hair is short and it's in black and white and she looks so beautiful.
They're ruining my life, and I'm angry.

***

I slept horribly, and now I'm sitting here, watching my wife scroll through her phone.
She looks like she hasn't slept in years.
She has slept horribly for the past couple of months, and we were about to sleep and be okay and then Emily swooped in and once again, ruined my life.
Right when things were about to get great again, she swept in and ruined it.
We're at the camp ground and I couldn't be happier. Audrey is sitting at a picnic table, scrolling through her phone, and the kids are playing nearby, and Ethan and Kendall and watching some video and they're laughing.
They never have problems in their marriage. They have the relationship Audrey and I used to have.
Noah and Emily aren't talking, and neither are Audrey and I.
Everyone says that we're their star relationship.
I can't do this anymore. I can't deal with this anymore.
I stare at my incredible wife, and eventually, she looks up.
The moment she does, I look away. She sighs quietly.
It's only the 30th of June.
I want to leave already.
When Audrey looks away from me, I look back at her, and then she looks at me.
"What is it?" She asks.
"Nothing." I mumble, looking away. She sighs and looks back at her phone. My eyes flick to her.
Weird. This is weird.
I can't look away from her. She looks up again, catches me looking at her and then sets her phone down, looking back at me.
It's a while like that, us just staring at each other.
I won't let Emily ruin my relationship and my happiness, or my wife's happiness.
I get up and walk around the bench, sitting down next to her.
She looks at me. I pull my phone out.
Me: hi
She looks down at her phone.
My Juliet: hi
I stare at the phone and then I tap her shoulder. She looks at me.
I lean in and kiss her. She kisses me back, and then I pull away.
"I love you." I say quietly. "I'm sorry, but I love you."
She smiles.
"I love you too."
Emily is watching us in disgust.
I want to leave.