Forgetting Them All, Remembering the Few (OC fanfic)

Chapter 13

Axl's Pov

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I wake up and suprisingly Levi isnt pounding on the door, screaming my name. I see Christa is still asleep and she looks just adorable. Not that I'm falling for her or anything. That would be super creepy. It's just an observation. Creepy stalker stuff aside, I open the door very quietly and go to the dining hall.

I walk through the entrance to see Reiner and Bertholdt sitting at a table, alone. I walk over tk them and sit down.

"Hey guys. What's up?" They look at each other and then back at me.

"So Axl. We've been noticing some changes with you. We think you've been brainwashed or something. You are not the Axl we know." Reiner said, quite concerning might I add.

"Guys, I'm still the same me. I just have to play an act to fool everyone else." I said.

"Axl, I dont think you are. You havent mentioned the mission at all. Its like you're keeping secrets from us and we dont like it." Bertholdt replied.

"Just relax guys. I would never keep secrets from you! You're my best friends in the world. You practically raised me." I started getting defensive.

"Oh yeah? What about your last name? And the fact that Commander Erwin Smith is your father?!" Reiner started yelling. "You kept this from us the entire time we've ever known you!? It's not fair Axl! We told you everything and you kept secrets! It's not okay!" Anger was filling in my vains. I clutched my fist so tight that my knuckles were white.

"Ya know what!? That is my business! Erwin left me when I was five! Do you know what it's like to see your father leave out the door and have his face haunt you the rest of your life!?" Both of us were standing up. "My life was way worse than yours buddy. I didnt tell you my last name because it just reminded me of HIM!!" I threw a fist at him and hit his jaw. He put his hand on the spot I hit and then kicked me in the stomach. I jolted back for a second, but then did the move Annie' s father taught me when we went to visit one day. I grasped my arms around his chest and flipped him over, using my legs for support. He was on the ground and tears were streaming out of my eyes. Just then some more recruits came into the hall after hearing the noise. I bolted through the exit and ran towards the woods.

I bit my hand and blood trickled down my fingers. I then turned into my titan and went even deeper intothe trees. My titan was only 10 meters, so hiding was pretty easy. I hid in the trees and cried, trying to make a mimimal amount of noise so no one could hear me.

Jean's Pov

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I wake up and think about what is next to come. I have to listen to Axl now as my leader and Marco isnt even here to comfort. God I miss him. He's probably in heaven right now, watching over me. Love ya buddy.

I change into my uniform and walk toward the bathroom. Then I hear screaming coming from the dining hall. Other soldiers around me hear it tok amd we rush to the hall. When we get there Reiner is on the ground in pain and Axl is leaving through the exit. I then hear loud footsteps. The others check to see if Reiner is okay, but I run out the door. Axl must've gotten in a fight with him and ran off. I look into the woods and then enter them. Axl always liked to go into the woods when she stayed with us.

I get deeper into the woods and start screaming her name.

"Axl! Axl! WHERE ARE YOU!? Axl please! Come out! Its me! Jean!" Then there is smoking coming fron the trees and then Axl comes running towards me with tears streaming down her face. She hugs me til I can barely breathe and weeps into my jacket.

"I c-cant do this." I am confused at this statement.

"Do what?" I asked her in a calming voice. I'm really trying to keep her like this cause if she gets mad, I might be joining Marco sooner than expected. I also havent seen Axl in such a vulnerable state. Usually she is the one who never cries or even gets sad. The only emotions I've seen her express are anger, happiness, delusion, and excitement. Never really crying into my clothes amd hugging me until I cant breathe.

"I cant t-tell you. Its a secret." I nod my head in unmderstanding. If she doesnt want to tell me,she doesnt have to. I just wanna support her right now. Maybe this is what I've been missing from Axl. I just wanted a moment where she was weak.