I Hate You ,But I Love You

I'm stuck!

Swara ran cursing herself for being late.

Swara-(running, mumbling) great.... How easy to say that I'll take care but look the t...time.... What if bus left before I reac....hh.....ah that's gonna be problem.....

She increases her speed not noticing the fact that she's being followed by someone in black hoodie.

Swara was almost in bus stop when bus starts,she runs following the bus.

Swara- oh oh ho shit shit........run run!!!!

She holds the rod and someone pulls her with force inside the bus leaving a electric sensation on her hand and quickly turns around, she takes deep breath.

Swara- thank God.... (Tries to see the person's face but he didn't let her) ajeeb hai....help bhi ki aur sakal bhi nahi dikha raha.... Excuse me???

But he kept avoiding her this irritates Swara.

Swara- ( frowning) am I going to eat him or what? (let go) anyway I'm on time that's relief..... phew...

Looking her hand she noticed him.

Swara's POV
I was late for the bus so ran as fast as I could but still I got late and the bus starts..... My family is gonna kill me... Thinking this I increased my speed at that time someone stretch his hand out for me and I happily grab this opportunity after all who wants to hear lecture for being late.....
But his hand feels like I have hold many times because this electric sensation is not new and I know this sensation and quickly try to see his face but he turned around..... I tried many times but God knows how he look alike that he's not letting me see him...... Pata nahi aaj kal ke larko ko kya ho gaya h.... Covering their face and all.....
Anyway taking a seat I relaxed myself after a marathon race.....
After I opened my eyes he's already gone!!
Where?? When?? When I was asleep?? Wait.... It doesn't matter...
Huh am not someone who wants to know why I keep feeling this weird things lately....
I don't care!!!

When I reached home its already 5 o'clock and after long lesson from my dearest Mom and lovely sister only supported by Dad  ...I got food and they keep lecturing me about taking care of myself and I can't help but smile.
"Mom dad and Ragini all cares for me after the incident for that I found myself responsible..... Everything was my fault"
But they keep saying that it's not me!

Ragini shakes me and giving her my most innocent smile I escaped with their scolding session.
I'm so smart na.......that's why I always scores 1st position in college till that Mr Attitude spoils everything..... I want to kill him.... Why I'm even thinking about him, he doesn't matter!

Sleep Swara or you gonna keep thinking about all monsters in your life.

Did I said that I love to sleep when I am tired well who not want to?
Good night Swara.... Sleep well for again meeting with Mr Attitude- Sanskaar!

POV ends.

Sun rises with new hope but Ragini's eyes are not in mood to open.
Swara- hey!!! Get up!! How can you be still sleeping ......(shaking her)
Ragini- (sleepy tone, groaning) go!! Let me sleep for some more time......
Swara- hey this is not feeling right... You are in charge for waking me up, remember?
Ragini- (getting up) get lost!! Why I have you as my sister I wish I had a brother....... (releasing she looks Swara but it's to late for releasing)

Swara's eyes filled with water.

Ragini- plzz....(hugs her) I didn't mean it..... Plzz don't cry...(seeing her sister's condition who's eyes are red because of tears ,Ragini starts to sob covering her face with palm) I'm sorry..... Please....

How can Swara let her cry after all she didn't said anything wrong.... It would better to have a brother.

Swara- (controls her sobs and starts to laugh loudly holding her stomach) hahaha......hahaha.....(Ragini looks her dump folded) look at your face!!! Looking li..like a child... who's chocolate I have snatched....
Ragini- (stops crying) what you mean??
Swara- (pulls her cheek) I was joking!!! Hahaha....o God look at your face...
Ragini pout.
Swara- sorry sorry (holding ears) come here (both hugs each other)

Swara's POV
Sorry Ragini for lying with you.... But I can't change things now!
I hate you Sanskaar!!

POV ends

Ragini's POV
Sorry Swara for stretching the old wounds but I didn't mean to.... I know that you are lying that it was a joke but your eyes can't lie....
Atleast you know the reason but   I don't even know the reason behind this!!

POV ends.

After there lovely sister session they reached college, in whole journey Swara keep making jokes and pretending that she's fine while Ragini keep supporting her not wanting to see sad or any sorrow expression on her face.

Laksh sensed that something is wrong with the expression of Ragini's face and excuse themselves from others, on the other hand Swara's eyes were searching for her rival..... Sanskaar.
Seeing him writing something on notebook looking thing she can't help but kept thinking that what if he's making some special notes or could it be that he got important questions or something...... After all competitive mind with your rivals works the best.

Pragya- hey something wrong??
Swara- nah... just little bit...
Pragya- yah I know your little bit.....
Abhi- nothing is wrong just lover boy needs some quality time....
Swara- someone is getting jealous..
Abhi- main kyu hone laga jealous (sarcastic) meri  girlfriend ko thori hi na kisi magazine mein mujh se zyada interest hai!
Pragya- don't say anything about my magazine!!
Swara patting Abhi- it's OK.... She can't change...
Abhi- why she's my girlfriend anyway?
Swara- galti sab se hoti hai..... Better luck next time.
They left leaving confused Pragya alone.
Pragya- arre maine kya kiya....wait!!!
She ran behind them.

Laksh keep looking Ragini who seems lost, not concentrating on dance rehearsal and getting scolded.

Teacher- c'mon Ragini what are doing?!!
Laksh- excuse us ma'am... will be right back.
Teacher- ok fine.
He dragged her outside the class .

Laksh- hey baccha... Kya hua?
Ragini without waiting for another minute tells him about morning incident.
Laksh hugs her- it's OK.... Swara knows that you don't wanna hurt her.
Ragini- but I hurt her, right?
Laksh- no Ragini.... She's now forgetting that part of past and we should encourage her, if you will be weak then how can she move on?
Ragini keep looking him.
Laksh- its true that we don't know the past which changes both our families life but at least we can support them, right?
Ragini nodded and Laksh hugs her and find Swara looking them from little far, he tried to stand up but she signals him to be with her as only he can make her understand and she knows that.

Swara left from there with smile which turns into evil smile finding Sanskaar's stuff on a table near tree and the best part is he's not anywhere to seen.

Swara's POV
I'm happy that now Ragini will not fill guilty about morning incident this makes me happy...... And then I found Sanskaar's stuff specially the notes..... Wait it's a diary!
I quickly grab it but not sure if I should open or not......
No no this is bad habit.....
But he's my friend, right?
No absolutely not!! He's not my friend!

I can just open it and place back, he's not anywhere to seen then how he's gonna find, right?

My smile grew that almost my cheeks hurt.

I grabbed it..... It's a middle size diary with written My Life in front with bold letters ...........I felt sudden push and my body pinned to tree, I closed my eyes in fear and slowly opened them...... my breath hitch finding Sanskaar this close to me I tried to move but he pinned my hands to the tree's back with his one hand and snatching the diary with his other hand.
I felt intimidated......he's strong I can't move and I realized....... I'm stuck.

Thank you all who prayed for me, I'm fine now , and keep reading.
Be safe and healthy.

Thanks.