just a little something from me to you

Growing through hardships

I titled this chapter growing through hardships because it seems like when one battle is over another one follows but even in the midst of these trials I find myself hurting crying and learning from my trials whether they be good or bad or whether I caused them or if it was just life I always ask God to show me what is it that he wants me to learn from this.An example of one of my battles is I was once diagnosed with a non cancer brain tumor and sarcidosis and I also was battling with depression and diabetes and it was so hard I went to the emergency room at least 3x aweek and I was so scared that every time I got a headache or a nose bleed I really thought this tumor was going to explode in my brain it was a scary time in my life and to make things worser my husband was no support at all I really felt like I was all alone and the enemy kept telling me I was going to die I was on Prednisone which is a steroid and it made my diabetes worser let alone blew me up like the hulk but I never stop praying and believing God that I would be healed. I remember the last time I was about to go to the hospital and I was alone as usual and I was so tired of running to the emergency room that I cried out to God I will not go to the hospital no more God if you take me then I am going to go out praying and worshipping you and I remember God spoke to me and I heard YOU ARE NOT ALONE and I felt a peace that really surpasses all understanding and the reason I said I always grow and learn from my battles is because now my second born daughter who has five children 4 girls and 1boy which I have custody of them all because she is now battling a sickness like I had she has sarcidosis and tumors on her liver and lungs and it's so hard seeing her sick like this and her being so scared but I really believe that because I battled with a sickness that it makes me try to be there for her as much as I can because I had no support and instead of me crying as much as I feel like sometimes I find myself praying more and believing that if God brought me out he will do the same for my daughter but at the same time it's also like God what ever is your will it will be done and I can encourage her when she feels like she can't go on I tell her she have five reasons to fight for four girls and one boy and she always smile when I tell her that so that's one of the reasons I say I grow and learn from my mistakes and from my battles and I always remember God saying that this battle is not mines it's the Lord so whatever you may be dealing with in your life at this time whether sickness financial or mental or family just know that you can get through this don't give up and take one minute at a time and pray and most of all believe what you pray no matter what your mind is telling negative just know this too shall pass and it ain't over till God says it's over God bless