Bitter Redamancy

Chapter 9: "Start of Something New"

Chapter 9: "Start of Something New"

"She told me that we don't stand a chance"

"And what does she know about us?"

"Well, she told me a very interesting little story about the history of dopplegangers, how they're fated to fall inlove with each other. Basically, the universe programmed you to fall in love Stefan, not me, which means... We're a lost cause no matter what we do. Im paraphrasing"

"The universe?"

"Her words, not mine"

"So she's crazy?"

"Maybe. Maybe she's not"

"Look. I know I spent the last couple days focusing on trying to find Stefan, but that has nothing to do fwith how I feel about you, and I'm not gonna let Silas' 2,000-year-old ex-girlfriend screw things up between us"

"No one tells me how I live my life. No one tells me who I love. Especially not some vindictive, prehistoric witch and definitely not the universe. And I'm not going to let someone else's idea of destiny stop me from loving you, or being with you, or building a future with you, because, you are my life."

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Tama kayo nanunuod ako ng The Vampire Diaries season 5 e03... *sobs* Naiiyak ako sa mga lines ni Damon :'( "I'm not going to let someone else's idea of destiny stop me from loving you, or being with you, or building a future with you, because, you are my life."

Kaso destiny na talaga ang naglayo samin ni HB. Paano kami makakapag build ng future namin kung wala siya sa tabi ko. *SOBS* Siguro sa panaginip ko nalang talaga, mangyayare ang gusto ko. Ang sakit. Eto yung sinabi ng destiny ko na kailangan ko ng pakawalan siya. I really need to move on. But how? How can I start those moving on shits kung di ko alam kung paano or saan ako mag uumpisa?

Alam kong eto naman gusto niyang mangyare eh. Ang makalimutan ko na siya.

Kaya simula ngayong araw na'to susubukan ko...

Hindi ko lang susubukan, gagawin ko talaga. Hindi naman pwedeng sa lahat ng oras ay masaktan ako dahil sa pangyayare dati. Kailangan ko ring buoin ulit ang sarili ko. Hindi para sakanya, kundi sa sarili ko. This is a lesson learned for me. Dapat hindi ko ibigay ng buo ang sarli ko kapag nagmamahal para naman kahit papaano may matira pa kung sakaling masaktan ako. At iyon ang gagawin ko KAPAG nagmahal ule ako. Magtitra ako para sa sarili ko.

Sabi nga nila na madami pa'kong makikita o pagdadaanan pagka college ko. Kaya dapat magpakasaya daw ako dahil ito na ang last year ng buhay ko bilang highschool student.

Kailangan kong bumawi sa mga kaibigan ko. Simula kasi nung naging miserable buhay ko, napalayo na ang loob ko sakanila. Kailangan kong bumawi sa mga oras na sinayang ko kaka iyak sa taong hindi na talaga babalik para sakin. Siguro ito na yung magandang simula sa buhay ko.

It's now or never na'to. Puso lang.... Ay mali! Hindi na puso pala. Utak lang :) kakayanin na'to

*Phone ringing*

*Phone ringing*

Sino na namn yun???

Oh. It's Chloe!

"Hey?"

"Stephiiiiiieeee!!! Sagjsu---"

"Hephep! calm down, Chloe!"

"Ok." *sigh* "can you go with me shopping, please!! Pretty please!!!" Si Chloe talaga... i know that she's batting her eyelashes while she's begging... ugh. as if i can see! :)))

"Stephie? Are yah still there? Hellooo?!"

"K. fine! I'll be there at ---'

"I'm here , stephie! just open the goddamn door. it's very hot kaya like-"

Gosh! Nandito na siya! I really need to take a bath and also my face looks haggard! for pete's sake! -_-

Pumunta ako sa door then unfortunately... nandun na si Chloe.. maayos na maayos na talaga -.-

" uhm. chloe? I need to take a bath.. Dyan ka muna. saglit lang"

I run as fast as I can! magmomonologue na naman yun kasi less beautiful ako ngayon. kidding aside. eto na siguro yung simula ng pagmomove on ko. I think?

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[a/n] sorry ngayon lang :)