[BOOK 1] More Than This

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LOVE IS ALL THAT MATTERS

[Ethan's POV]

After I cry for the past three hours straight, I feel so drain and so I decided to grab something to eat and drink. Maybe Kinzy has leave after I throw my shoe at the door, he didn't speak again. He pleaded like I was the only thing that can make him alive yet I'm like his kryptonite to make him feel weak. If he didn't stop maybe I came running into his arms and forgot everything that just happens. Good thing he did stop and I still have the last piece of my dignity and makes him think that I'm really hurt. Oh god, I'm so like him much.

I stand up and started to walk weakly into the door. I open the door slowly like it was a fragile thing, and then I swallow hard when I saw him fall into his back at the floor. Is he been leaning on the door for the past hours?

"Jesus!" he exclaimed when his back kisses the floor. He was startled by the sudden fall. He combed his messy morning hair that looks good on him, with his fingers.

I just cover my mouth and conceal myself from laughing. Great! That hurts surely. Serves him right.

"Did you just let me fall?" he pouted to me with his doe eyes that surely makes me melt. Oh god, I felt so weak with those eyes of him and surely that'll be the death me soon.

"Why are you here?" I ask blankly suppressing the urge to hug him tight and thank him that he did not leave.

"I told you, I'm not going anywhere until you talk to me," he said while helping himself up and dust. "I told you, I'll wait until you give me a chance to explain."

"I don't want to talk to you." I stomped my feet in front of him that's make me like a two year old.

"Baby please, can you give me at least a chance to explain?" he said trying to reach out my hands in him but I didn't let him instead I marched inside up to my bed and sit at the edge.

"You cheated on me, how should I let you speak when everything you might say is a lie and nothing more." I burst into tears I don't think I still have. I buried my face into my palm, I don't like it. I don't like this feeling.

He sits beside me and pulled me closer to him, hugging me sideways. "It's not what you think what happen. I didn't cheat on you,"

I just cried louder.

"Ethan, please listen to me." he tried to moved my face closer to him but I stood still. My tears still flowing like there was a fucking dam cracked freeing the large volume of waters inside.

"You cheated on me." I said again, more of a whisper than speak. I don't think I have strength still to continue my fight against him.

"No, I didn't." he said firmly

"Then how can you explain that make out session with your ex-girlfriend at the entrance of the bathroom!?" I yell at him that even those who are staying at the first floor can hear and I moved away from his reach.

"It's not what happens," He speaks so soft and was still calm after I yell into his face.

"Then what!? Oh please, stop lying to me. Just tell me if you are just doing this just to have fun. Just tell me if you are just doing this because you just wanted to try something new, just experimented me, just—"

"Ethan no, it's not like that." he cut me, "I didn't do it. I ask you because I wanted to be with you, I wanted you to be with me, to be mine. How can you say those things? You have no idea what you are doing to me every time you are near me. Can't you see? I'm overly crazy for you and you were just thinking like that?"