If She Only Knew

Cute

Mom kept wanting to hug me but I kept pushed her away, I didn't want to just be held and her telling it'll be alright over a thousand times. "Your friend will be ok I promise" she told me as she smoothed her hand over my hair. 

"Can we go to the Hospital ?" I asked her. She eyed me for a second "ok we can" she said. Ellie suddenly jumped in our car "If it's ok I'd like to go too...please" she asked. Dad glanced at her "alrighty, but is it ok with your parents ? " he asked. "They don't mind at all" she told him.  

It was an hour drive just to get there, Ellie seemed so calm that she was playing a game on her cell, I was the opposite nervous and chewing on my lip. After parking I just wanted to bolt in the hospital and find Hayden. But I kept my cool. 

Dad was the one to ask where he'd be located, the woman seemed annoyed but gave us the room location. "She must be having a bad night" Ellie whispered. "Yeah" I said. Walking down the hallway it seemed quiet. " Slow here" Ellie said. 

"It is" I told her. "Imagine it dark, the lights flickering and it's abandoned" she said. "I'd rather not imagine that" I told her. "Just think of it... it's a dark and stormy night and your all alone in this creep abandoned hospital" she explained. "Ellie I get it" I glanced at her. 

"Alright then" she said. Walking into his room seeing him lying there asleep, my brain went into help mode. "Would you like some time alone with him ?" Ellie asked me. "Can I ?" I asked her. "Yeah, I'll get your parents to go away" she said walking out of the doorway. 

I smiled as she walked off, turning back to Hayden I sat at the edge of the bed. He looked so helpless just laying there sleeping, it was too emotional. Even though he was sleeping Hayden looked so peaceful and more handsome. 

I couldn't breathe, there was pain that it just hurt when I breathed. I could feel my eyes getting glassy as tears streamed down my cheeks staining them, even now my heart just felt heavy sitting right here. Dropping my shoulders I could just cry. 

Not even noticing his hand had slightly moved over on my skin "where am I ?" hearing his voice. Glancing up I just lowered my body and just laid there hugging him crying my eyes out. "You're going to be alright" he says weak as I'm sobbing on him.

"Shh Mona, look at me" he says as he lifts my chin in his direction. "What ?" I asked staring up at him with glassy eyes and tears at the edge of my eyelids ready to fall. "I got you" he said. Smiling the tears fell, I laid my head back down on his chest. 

Once mom and dad came in, I didn't even want to leave his side, I actually begged if I could stay. I knew mom and dad wouldn't let me, they kept eyeing each other then the "talk" between each other about it. During their talk my cell went off, it was Jesse, wanting to hang.

I couldn't even think at this moment, Jesse wanting to hang and then there's Hayden laying in a hospital bed with a broken leg, three fractured ribs and a dislocated shoulder. So how would you choose either one ? 

Jesse was... different but I had a hopeless crush on him, he was that hot sexy guy all girls would literally swoon for. By the next day, I drove to the hospital alone to see Hayden. Walking into his room, there were two vases of flowers. "Hey" he noticed me. 

"Hey how are you doing today ?" I asked. "Good, I'm good. How about you ?" he asked. "Fine" I said. "Have you not listened of what I told you ?" he asked smirking at me. "Yeah yeah, saying you're fine means you're not fine I remembered" I told him. 

"Come on spill" he said as he sat himself up more. Sitting at the foot of his bed "fine I'll tell" I said but nothing came out. "Anything bothering you ?" he asked. "No, I don't know really maybe just a phase I'm going through" I explained. "What's the phase ?" he asked. 

"You know Jesse from school ?" I asked. "Yeah I know Jesse, we're friends" he said. Oh shit, they're friends ? I didn't see that coming. Now what ? I'm pretty much up a creek without a paddle. Do I tell Hayden ? "Mona" "Sorry" I said. "What about him ?" he asked. 

"Oh nothing, he's a nice person" I changed the subject. "Yeah you could say nice I guess" he said. "So when do you get to go home ?" I asked. "In a few days, my mom will pick me up" he told me. "That's good" I say. "How was your day ?" he asked. "Was ok, didn't do much" I say.

Glancing down I began playing with the strings from my cardigan, I was wearing high waisted stretchy skinny jeans a white quarter sleeved shirt with a burgundy cardigan over it. I felt his warm hand slip over mine, I smiled a little, "I like it when you smile, it's cute" he said. 

I felt the warmth in my cheeks, I knew I was blushing " thanks" I said. "Your welcome" he said. "So" I said. I glanced down at my hand as he turned my hand over and slowly ran his fingertips over the palm. "Kinda tickles" I told him. "It's suppose to relax you" he smirked. 

"Well it's not relaxing me, it tickles" I said. "You're too cute Mona" he smiled. He'd look cuter if he was holding me more, but whatever.  "I try" I said. "Question" I asked. "Ok, shoot" he said. "How do you know when you...love someone ?" I asked. 

Seeing him thinking about it, I noticed he slightly licks the corner of his lips. "Well when two souls fall in love there is nothing else but the wanting to be close to the other, it's being with someone who are just deeply in love with, and just wants to spend their lives with forever" 

Wow, just wow. "But also love isn't perfect, it's not practical, it's not easy and it doesn't come naturally with letting you fall for whomever you'd like, love will pair you with someone you may not expected, love comes unexpectedly. Love is how you both overcome your obstacles" he said.

"But also...it's ultimately the best feeling to have, mainly the best thing to happen to you, is to be loved and loved in return. It's a powerful thing" He added. "Mona ?" he asked. "I'm sorry, that was just beautiful" I said teary eyed, wiping the back of my hand over my cheek. 

"I didn't realize how powerful that was to you" he said. "It's ok" I said. "Why do you ask about when you know your in love ?" he asked me. I glanced down again, "I...I just wondered". When I looked back up at him, he was sitting up. 

"You're the type of person that makes forever seem too short, what ever you choose, choose happiness"