If She Only Knew

Says Who

Pulling out my cell and just staring at it, who do I even call ? I began walking down the sidewalk, my hair was matted to my forehead from the pouring rain, I didn't care anymore. Around five, I walked all the way home no one was home.

As I put the key into the door, I didn't yet open it but just brought my forehead to the door and leaned against it. Thinking why me, why did this happen to me ? Again I was a nobody. Standing there not moving, I did hear a car door from across the street but never looked. 

"Mona !" I didn't even turn around to look. I felt cold fingers grasp my upper arm, I just lost every energy I had. "Mona" realizing it was Hayden. "Mona where were you all day ? and your soaking wet" he said. "I...left" I said. 

"I've been looking for you, why did you leave the school ?" he asked. "I didn't feel good" I told him. "You could of told me I would have brought you home, then for you to walk in the rain. You're even cold" he said stepping closer. "Sorry" I said glancing down. 

"It's ok Mona" he said then had hugged me. After the hug I was so tempted to invite him in, but was just too drained. "Are you sure you are ok Mona ?" he asked. "Yeah, I'm good" I forced myself to smile. "Ok, but call me" he said. "Alright" I said. 

Watching him walk to his car then drive off, now why didn't you just tell him Mona. Unlocking the door and stepping in, I dropped the house keys onto the table and walked upstairs to my room and just stood there in the doorway. 

An hour later I took a shower and changed, not even long after that my parents came home. Hearing dad laughing, I wanted to smile like I always did, but I couldn't even. I know, I should be the stronger person and just ignore everything, but I just couldn't. 

Have you ever fallen in love with someone that wasn't even yours ? I swear it takes one look... one simple look is all it takes, and it's takes one hundred thoughts to go through our heads. But then that one only thing that every girl in the world does, we just manage too just smile. 

And this was my story, but it wasn't over. Over the few days I kept to myself, sitting at the table in the far corner, "Mona" I turned to see Ember in a black dress with a long grey plaid shirt over it and black boots. "Hi" I said. "Hey so I need advise" she said. "Oh ok" I said. 

"Well first off there's this really, really super guy I like, I want to invite him to a lunch or dinner" she explained. "Nice, ok" I said. "Yeah, but how do I ask him ?" she asked then had sat down. " Make sure you two are alone, say do you have a minute, find the right time and place" I said.

"You know, have the plan down in what your doing, if he says no, just be ok with it but come up with a reason to leave in advance. If it does work out don't be too excited about it. Be casual and just be you" I told her. "Do you think it will work ?" she asked. 

"I think so, if he likes you back then it's all good" I said. "Your so awesome, your my new friend !" she jumped up and hugged me and then ran off. I just smiled, it did feel good to help her out. As I was in mid bite when I felt it being taken "I'll take that, thank you" turning to grab it back. 

"Hey" I said. "What ? What are you going to do ?" Cole said. "Give it back Cole" I stood up. He put the sandwich into his mouth "mmm so good" he chewed and swallowed it. I just walked away instead without getting angry and not yelling at him about it.

Afterwards, I was standing in front of my open locker when I heard Jesse's voice and some others all talking and joking around, I didn't even look. "God I know" Gavin said. "Right, just couldn't believe it" Cole said. "Well if I pass that class I'll be fine" Gavin said.

"I'd so love an A in that class" Cole said. "Would you to shut up !" Jesse said. "Oh looky here, it's...Nona right ?" Gavin said noticing me. "Go away" I said. "Hmm... uh no thanks" he said. "He has a point, we don't have too, our lockers are right here" Cole said. 

"What do you think Jesse ? Hey instead why don't you explain a little thing to her" Gavin pulled him over towards him. "Tell her Jesse" Cole smiled at him. I glanced back and forth at them, "tell Nona what you did" Cole stared at him. "It's Mona" I told them.

"I played you all this time, I was testing my own girlfriend if I hit on another girl to make her jealous" he said. "Boy was Lucy just crazy jealous, and from what Rachel says you got bitched out from Lucy" Cole said. "Seems it worked out well Jesse. Good job" Gavin said. 

"But why pick me ?" I asked. "From the first day of school, we noticed you were the new girl. The newer you are the more easier it is" Cole told me. "Glad it work for Lucy then, she needs your undivided attention full time, I'm jut a waste of time" I said then slammed my locker. 

I walked away all mad from that and never looked back, later on after school I went to the mall for some relaxation. Walking around some stores, I first window shopped then into regular shopping, stopping at Old Navy I did find some nice warm leggings that I could use.

Walking into Bath & Beyond I only smelled the lotions, I loved smelling lotion. Weird thing about me, but a lot of people do like the smell of their lotion and those scented candles.Walking out of the store, and deciding to get a pumpkin spice hot chocolate from Starbucks. 

Getting in line and waiting, I glanced over towards the tables and saw Ember here. Thinking what is she doing at the mall ? Kinda weird to see someone from your school and just seeing them out and around. I mean should I walk over there ? 

But when the line moved I saw her with a person, seemed they were deep in conversation, I didn't know who she was talking with, maybe someone she knows. After ordering and glancing over again, I know spying isn't nice in all.

After getting the hot chocolate and grabbing a stir stick, once again looking over seeing Ember's hand on the other person's hand, I swear I got to stop looking. Walking around the corer, but stopping sudden that Ember was with Hayden. 

Um... ok... but then it hit me I remembered what Ember asked about her advise about how to ask someone out, a person she liked. Wait did she like Hayden ? My Hayden...er Hayden. I felt like everything was falling apart too fast and just wished I had amnesia to forget.