LIFE of SECRETS

XVIII

She was silent..silent as hell..I don't know why? but I was not liking her silence..her lips were sealed. .
She was not telling a single word but I wonder why?

I know the incidence of night..we both were at that tree..my heart was overwhelmed but my mind was aware of hurtness..
I have hurted my heart so many times but it was acting like a fool when she was with me..so I just ruined everything again..I know she is not thinking anything of me but I can't take any chance, I don't want any change in my life..I'm a spoil sport..an insane

"It's alright..Don't take it otherwise, I'm here to Just save you, My first priority is to escort u to ur frnds, once u r with them I'm done with u .." I remmebered every single word escape from my mouth..,I have to tell it when she was asking again and again about the hyenas to cover up my lies..I don't know why I did that but I was not helping myself the damage was already have been done so,I tell her to keep her mouth shut .. but I'm not liking her in that way now

Did I hurt her?

I remain silent too, I was not aware of saying anything, words can make the situation more worse so I seald my mouth too

She didn't ask me any more questions. ..
even she asked me nothing. .
she was ignoring me like I didn't exist why she was doing this, I didn't say her to be dead silent but she was a girl not a puppet, she can't be in my way everytime if she didn't want to talk then who I am to force her.. but her facial expressions are clearly saying that she is sad but why ? was she upset because of me,? no!..I stopped and she just bumped in me ..

"What are u thinking. .?" I asked

"About my friends. ."

was I matter nothing to her..yeah why will I matter?

"I can understand. ."
I said to calm her

"Really.."

"Absolutely. ."

"No you can't this was my first camping of my life, first camping with my new friends and on this new place and I ruined everything, I ruined everyone's fun.."She said sadly, I was feeling guilty for wasting her time now , if I have wanted, She would have been with her friends now...not with me

the fact of hurting her was stabbing my heart again and again. .

"it was not your fault. ."I said, almost whispered
She try to smile but just failed.
tear started falling from corner of her eyes..

I was still on place to see her like this, she closed her eyelids strongly to hold on her tears but her eyes were not supporting her...
she can express her feelings infront of me but don't want to... .why?

yeah because I'm noone to her, only a stranger..

"hey don't cry..
tears don't suite on a girl like u.."I said holding her hands, I was trying to soothe her..

"sit here.."I command but
she looked away but didn't sit..she is stubborn really ver very stubborn. .
I make her sit over the rock and didn't say anything..
I was silent because I don't know what to do with a crying one..?

"Let's go. ."She said and started moving
I was still holding her hand while walking she didn't yanked her hand back
We were tottaly silenced I didn't said a single word..
I was blank
after walking for an hour..
"see ..there is smoke, I think there is our campsite.." I exclaim cheerfully
but I know what I was feeling in deep in my heart

"yeah.."

she was seems to little relieved 

After walking 15 min. we were there in a campsite ..