LIFE of SECRETS

XIX

Lillian Sealvastorm..

For hours,I slept like a dead..
but my mind was not so freshed..
Storms of thoughts were everywhere in my brain. .
I don't know why but my mind
was so disturbed, and was in deep thoughts..
I was in deep thoughts. .
may be I was sleeping but my mind didn't get the rest..
I was dreaming all the time..

and it's the first time in 48 hours that I was thinking something else not about him..

I was dreaming about my Dream that I saw at the bank of that Pond or Lake whatever was that..
it was really very beautiful and amazing dream..

I have remembered every part of that marvelous dream..
Waking up over the Rock, Jumping in Water..
The under water World...

oh!! How beautiful was that..wish it was real..the sparkling sand and that shining rocks ..
and that shell..
my transformation and everything was so real but this time it was like real dream..

But dreams are dreams and I have a reality to face..

My eyes were still hurting and so my limbs..
My head was bursting out in severe pain

"Hey sleepy head..
Have you wake up?"
Crystal asked

I get up and looked at her hopefully. .

"Are u alright. .,?"she asked

"I don't think so. ." I said

"Why..What happened? "Crystal asked me sitting beside me

What should I tell her..I was thinking
About my dream or Ryan's behavior towards me..

Dream is just a dream. .I'm tired not because of the dream but because of long walking and  it's stupid about to be worried about that dream, it's impossible..that can't be true and that was just a dream. ..only dream but..but Ryan is Reality but I shouldn't be thinking about him because he is noone of me, He told me his feelings and thinking that he will be done with me at the time of meeting my friends..so may be he is done. .

"Hey..what are u thinking. .?"Crystal aked.

"Nothing. . "I said
I should wait for some time to share everything with Crystal, Nat and Kat.
it's not like I don't trust them but I have to wait for the right time.

"can I have a coffee ?. .please"I asked politely.

"Well..your wish is completed my dear. ."Nat said entering in the tent.
"and there is your snacks darling"Kat said.

"Thanks. ."I said
"such a wonderful and caring friends you are"I was looking with sparkling eyes..
my heart was overwhelmed with their love and affectionate behavior. .they care for me
"unn hhh hh..You can cry later dear"Crystal said
"Yeah..lets go outside. ., we all  have waisted our so much of time in crying so now we have to enjoy. ."Kat said
I was happy to see her cheering up again.
"yeah..come on,get up"Nat said pulling me from the sleeping bag.

"okk.but give me time.., my limbs are crying in pain, I can't feel them "I said
"we'll take care of you.."Kat said supporting Nat

"yeah I'm with Them"Crystal was also supporting them

I have forgotten all my pain to see them smiling with me..

I got up from my sleeping bag and went outside of the tent with them..

it was already evening.A very calm and peaceful and very beautiful evening with all my friends. .
Except the one..him.

I was not in the condition of asking about hin, because I already knew that he was done with me, he already has escorted me to my friends.
I should be Happy, but I was not.but why?
I ignore all the things,
I freshen up and joined them.
we were sitting a in circle around the fire like for any ritual and cultural act.
They all was happy to see me..my tiredness can be seen through my face and may be that's the they didn't asked me anything. Well I was not in the mood of discussing my jungle Visit with anyone now..I was not happy in deep inside.atleast he can go after telling me good bye but he left me here like an unknown well I can't blame him..I'm an unknown and he is a stranger. I was trying to calm myself and my heart but it was not in my control, I was getting furious for founding myself helpless.

"Hey..princessa why are you so silent..?"asked Luke

I was not even sure what happened to me..
was I angry on Ryan for not telling me good bye or I
was tired of long walking,
or I was just hungry.
yeah hunger can change a human being to animal..or Ryan has affected me by his ill manner and now I'm turning in an ill mannered girl because of him.

Hey..will you speak something or will burn me with your gaze..?" Luke asked me again breaking the chain of my thoughts. .

"I'm just tired.."I tried to explain

"you can go and take some rest if u want to. ."Crystal told me placing her hand over my shoulder.

"No..No, it's ok I want to be with you"I replied

why would I go..? and why the hell will I ruine my time in cursing him for not being with me..I can't let me waste my time and ruined everyone's joy just because of the unknown stranger, he is noone. if he was my friend, then he had never  left me without saying me anything.
I should be Happy and enjoy with my friends. .at least they never avoided me and always took care of me.
I stopped thinking about him and looked up smiling at them.
"Let's Enjoy. ."I said cheerfully, smiling and pleaded to forgot about him.
If he don't care then why should I?
I grabe the hands of kat and Nat and started dancing. .Since Crystal was nowhere to be seen so I can't make her dance with me. .After some time Charles and luke also joined us.