The Knowledge Of Us

III

Chapter 3: Distraction

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Waking up wasn't easy the next day. My eyes were crusty from crying, my hair a ratty mess from tossing and turning all night, and my throat hurt from the sobbing I was doing. I was a mess. Pulling myself together I got in the shower really quick and then quickly got dressed, pulling my still wet hair into a bun on the top of my head, putting in my contacts, and getting dressed in something comfortable so I can work easily. Grabbing my bag and keys, leaving my phone where it was, I walk out of the hotel room and get to the meeting place. It seemed to take forever for once to get out of the hotel, but once we did it didn't take long for us to make it to the filming place. I was told it was my job to film them as they got ready, as they have a record for being absolutely silly, and I am to film them as they have their breaks, for the same reason. I was a little upset to find out I won't be filming the actual music, or even assisting in the filming, but I guess that's because they think I don't have the experience. Maybe they only hired me to do this. Which is alright but I want to be doing something more.

Sighing I pick up the heavy camera and start walking around, I was assigned to Jin today, we have a couple of camera people assigned to certain members. But there are only four of us, so a couple of the camera men are assigned to multiple members. I liked being assigned just one member to be honest, they each deserve their own chance to be the center. Of course it's never just one member, because they are just such interesting people, where one is another three is bound to follow. The younger ones especially love to pick on the elders, especially the eldest. But they are so kind and loving to each other they just smile it off, laugh it off, and even pick back. I loved watching it, but sometimes I wish I could understand more of what they were saying. I only recognized a couple of words they would say. But of course I followed along to my ear piece and I did it with a smile, I'm working for amazing people, making nice money, and learning a whole new culture. This is just what I needed. I let the thoughts of Andy and Angie out of my head and let the happiness of these boys take over.

I put the camera down as they recorded, just observing the camera men, and secretly admiring the boys while they did their routine. It took a few tries, one would mess up and they would discuss it, then try again. It was a new experience that's for sure, watching them work and not being a part of it. It was almost hard not to add my thoughts into the conversation, but I withheld and just watched instead.

After a very long day of recording, and following the boys around, we start to drive back to the hotel, and we all, well almost all, of us walk to our rooms silently. Jimin was full of energy for some reason so he was basically bouncing off of the walls. It made us all feel better, a little less tired. I smile at them before going down the hall ahead of them and going into my room. I sighed heavily once I closed the door, quickly walking into the bathroom, trying to not let my eyes wander to my phone on the bedside table, I let my hair down. Glancing in the mirror at my face I sigh heavily, imperfections. Quickly undressing I get into a hot shower, letting the water hit against my skin in a soothing way. Tomorrow morning, we have to leave for a plane to go back to Seoul, which I'm excited about. I'll finally see where I'll be staying. We have to be up and at the meeting spot by 2 am, and it's currently 11, so I don't see any point in sleeping. Instead I hop out of the shower, dry my body and hair, get into clean shorts and a t-shirt, and grabbed my phone. There was one message from Angie. Excited to finally be hearing some sort of news I quickly put in my pin and listened to the message.

"Ash, hey it's me. Look everything is still being figured out here for my daughter, but uh there's something I wanted to tell you." I listen closely as I hear her take a deep breath. "I've been throwing myself into work to distract me from everything and I wanted to be the first person you heard this from. I got a client that got accepted to work for a big company here in America, the same one you've been applying for." My heart sinks. How? "I know this is a lot to take in, but most of my time is going to her, I won't be able to come back to Korea. Well, not just that, but I won't be able to be your manager anymore." I stop the message. My head throbbing. What did she say? No, she can't leave me. Not after everything we've been through. Heart pounding painfully in my chest I play the rest of the message. "I love you like you're my own kid I do, but there's more opportunity for me here in America with her, and there would be no time for me to go to Korea to manage you. So I decided to cut ties with you. I'm so sorry Ashley. Love you always, Angie." I sit there, staring at the wall. A scream rips through me and I throw my phone at the wall. Tears falling from my eyes, the pain in my chest unbearable. This had to be a dream, there is no way she'd leave me stranded in Korea, there's no way she'd drop me as a client. There's no way. Angie has been with me since I was ten.