Baby (A Supernatural AU)

Chapter 12

*Jessebell*

I was pacing my room. I don't know how many times I wished that my Daddy was still around. But not like this. This way it just makes me feel guilty. It's this sickening feeling in my gut that keeps getting tighter. I remember Daddy saying that the ghosts or spirits stayed on earth when they had a job that needed to be finished, though they eventually got angry and violent before a hunter (I guess) salts and burns their bones. There is no way I'd do that for or to Daddy, but he shouldn't be here. I feel so guilty knowing that I'm why he stayed here. That I'm not strong enough like I should be so he wouldn't have to be here. I need some air. I needed to get out of here. I need to be alone. I shrugged off Daddy's Jacket and removed his necklace from around my neck. I didn't even bother grabbing Baby's keys. I opened the window and bolted to somewhere only Tyler knows where I'd be. I wasn't going to the cemetery this time. But my tree hut instead, it's not a house, I built it when I was 13 and Tyler helped me. It was my space. I could get away from everything. It's an alternative to Baby. When I entered my tree hut the tears just flowed. I couldn't calm down. I just needed to cry and let it out. The feeling of not being enough. The feeling of not being strong. The feeling of someone broken and lost. The feeling of not having a parent to cry to. The overwhelming feeling of guilt. I felt like I was drowning, but I need to break down.  I need to breakdown in order to build myself back up in a better way. 

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I had calmed down slightly and now I'm just kinda thinking about everything and anything when my phone went off. 

I know you're feeling guilty, but please don't do anything stupid-T

I didn't respond to Tyler but he's one of the few that I enjoy being around.