Baby (A Supernatural AU)

Chapter 16

*Sam*

Cas left to check on Jess as I comforted Ty. We were sitting down, he was still tense and my shirt was soaked but I held Ty. "It's okay. It's all going to be okay. I'm not going anywhere." I said into his hair. I do this with his panic attacks and his nightmares. His mother left him a broken tortured soul and I've been picking up the pieces since. At least he's made friends with Jess. I don't know if he has any friends at school through. Ty's hands clenched and unclenched as he began to calm down, he pulled on my shirt with the fabric in his hands. He relaxed a little pulling from me some. Ty lifted his head to look at me. He eyes were red and puffy still full of fear. "Ssssh. It's okay." I said pulling him back toward me. His hands and arms moved to hug me and he climbed into my lap fully like he was little again. "Why am I like this?" He asked thought it was muffled because his face was pressed back into my chest. 

"I don't know." 

"But I get like this because of what mom did but am I just weak? Is that why I continue to get like this?" 

"No. Ty, what your mother did was a stupid reckless selfish thing that I wish I could take away from you. I'm your father and I don't like seeing you like this. But don't you ever think that you're weak because of this. It shows your strength. It shows that you don't give up and end it." 

"But, I don't like it. I hate it because I get scared have the panic attack and end up getting more scared." 

"I know it sucks. But sometimes the things that scare us make us stronger." 

"Really?" 

"mmmhm." 

"Dad?" 

"Yes." 

"Is there something like this that scares you?" 

"I could name a few." 

"Like what?" 

"Losing you is the big one on my list. Losing Dean even thought it's happened so many times, it never gets easier. Being Lucifer's bitch is up there too." 

"Lucifer? As in the devil?" 

"Yeah. I was in the cage with him for a year and a half, well my soul was. But then the memories came rushing back and I saw Lucifer everywhere. I ended up in a mental hospital for a while until Cas came back and took those visions upon himself."

"Whoa, so Cas is a good guy." 

"Yes." Ty nodded as Cas re-entered the room. "How is she?" 

"Still unconscious." 

"Did Dean show up?" 

"Yes." 

"Then where is he?" 

"Gone." 

"Cas?" 

"He wants to help. I told him to do so eh had to trust me. So right now he's in Heaven."

"You got him to let go." Cas nodded saying, "If everything goes as planned we should be seeing Dean hopefully in a week." 

"When you say we'd be seeing Uncle Dean in a week, you mean alive don't you." 

"Yeah, he does. It's not that weird." 

"It is though, he's been dead for 5 years. His body would be grossly decomposing." 

"He'll look as you remember him." 

"Really?" 

"Yes, it's because angels are doing it. They heal the body." 

"Oh." Tyler said nodded listening to our conversation.