Bitter Sweet Symphony ✓ tk

N I N E T E E N

"YOU wouldn't believe it but he was a very sweet guy at first. I had always wanted to take on piano lessons and when looking for a teacher I found him.

He messaged me on Facebook and bam, we were seeing each other every week. Yoongi was very nice, but dominant, which I found quite attractive. Soon we were more making out then actual playing piano. That's when he asked me out and after a few dates we became boyfriends. I was over the moon. He seemed to be the perfect boyfriend and he treated me just fine, opposite of how he now is.

Then one day, he dropped the fucking bomb on me. Apparently our parents had set us up. Fuck, I was promised to him from the beginning and I had no clue. I was too dumb to realize how random it was he messaged while I had never told him I needed a teacher. You probably don't know this but my parents are rich, like, fucking rich.

The Kim enterprise is owned by my parents. Yoongi's parents and mine made a plan to set us up together so they could finally have me on a leash. I've always stated my dislike towards their business, reason why I dropped out of school. Now with Yoongi, they could control me since they knew how deeply in love I had fallen with him. We got engaged though I had never said yes officially.

It hurts to know that Yoongi might have never loved me for real though he always assured me he did. After our engagement he stopped being romantic. He stopped caring for me. I became nothing to him but I couldn't get enough of the way he treated me. Breaking up with him means breaking ties with my parents. I dislike their business and the way they set me up, but they're still my parents. I love them. I don't want to be left alone".

"If it wasn't as bad enough as it was, he turned out to be an aggressive person. I saw him kill two guys in an ally next to a club when he was drunk. I already didn't have a good night out since Yoongi had been flirting with half of the people there, both girls and guys. Then, two guys bumped into him when we left and soon a fight started. I tried to stop him, I really did, but it only resulted into me getting hurt.

He stabbed them with his broken beer bottle. After he was done with them he turned to me and I feared he'd kill me too. After he threatened to murder me if I ever spilled what happened that night he took me home. We never spoke a word about it again but I was fucking afraid of him since then. He never seemed to care about me but as soon as I laid a finger on someone else, was it shaking hands or hugging a friend, he turned abusive. I had already pushed all my friends away by spending too much time with Yoongi, ignoring their calls or declining their plans to meet up. Too late

I realized I had no one to go to whenever Yoongi hurt me. Soon I learned to live with it, with the pain and the sadness. For every hit, I got a kiss in return the following day.

I was in love with the way he treated me, naïve to think a relationship was meant to be this way. I didn't think I deserved better. I thought I deserved Yoongi. I deserved to live through this pain. I had been a disappointment to my parents for my whole life, maybe this way my karma".

"My boyfriend only hits me because he loves me too much".

"That's what I used to say when someone tried to talk into me".

"But now I know".

"Yoongi hits me because he's a bad person who doesn't know how to love".