An Abundance Of Short Stories & A Handful Of Poems

Only In My Dreams

They say that time
Heals all wounds
But after 2 ½ years
The pain still remains
Now that he's gone
I only see him in
My dreams, I'm back
In that meadow
Looking through a
One way mirror
A younger version of myself
With a boy, his eyes are
The warmest color
I've ever seen

Here is what I do-
I throw my arms around him
And marvel in his warmth
Smile when he smiles
Laugh when he laughs,
Actively listen to the words
He says desperately hanging on
But when I wake up he's gone
When reality sets in
Devastation takes its place

Here is what I know-
He was my first heart
He will always be apart
Of what makes me who I am
Since I lost him
Relationships don't come easy

I will always have
His heart and he will have mine,
But only in my dreams
Can we be together

I walk a tightrope
Always looking forward
Afraid to look back
One wrong step and
I fall feet first
Laying on the ground
Brokenhearted and alone
This is where I stay