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I heard three knocks at my door then I quickly got up and opened it. Brendon pulled me into a tight hug "I was so worried what happened?" I grabbed Brendon's hand and led him to my couch. I explained everything to my best friend, how I almost killed Josh, how I met Frank, and how Josh and I are friends. Brendon pulled me into another hug and said. "It really wasn't your fault so stop blaming yourself, you can't control your anxiety, and if you even can I imagine it being really difficult." He pulled away and walked to the kitchen but tripped on my charger cord. "You're such a silly boy Bren." I said giggling. "Clean up your damn stuff next time!" Brendon said laughing. "Sorry!" I said helping him up. We both went out to the garden and watered our flowers. Every drop reminded me of the blood that dripped from Josh's wound. I wanted to hug him and tell him how much I loved him. I hate having crushes on straight men, they always end up making fun of me or take advantage of me. Maybe Josh was like that, maybe.
"I can't do this anymore." I dropped the watering can and got out of my night gown and put on a white tee shirt and gray sweat pants then ran to the hospital. It wasn't very far from my house. "Tyler where the fuck are you going." Brendon said catching up to me. "I'll be back soon, I promise." I ran so fast that my legs started to feel weak. "I'm coming with you." Brendon panted and tried his best to keep up with my pace. "You don't have to." I turned to look at him and saw sweat run down his forehead, his huge forehead. "I don't care, where the hell are you going though." I tried to catch my breath and suck it up, I'm almost there! My ribs were starting to ache. "I want to see Josh" Brendon looked at me with a annoyed face. "Why did you do that so suddenly we could have just skated there like we usually do." I felt bad for Brendon. "You won't understand." I rolled my eyes. "What the fuck do you mean I know you more than anyone in this entire universe, you're seriously fucking with me." I stopped because I couldn't take it anymore. "Look I'm sorry, I'm just really stressed." I wanted to cry in Josh's strong arms. I couldn't show Josh I was hurting though. "It's ok." Brendon said. I continued to run for one minute till I finally reached the hospital. I told the secretary I wanted to see Josh and all she said was it's "passed visiting hours.". I began to cry and I pleaded for her to let me go but she wouldn't budge. "Please he almost died yesterday, and I want to just see him get better, please?" She finally sighed and let me go. "I've never done this before so please don't do anything bad." She said handing me and Brendon visitor stickers. I passed by the waiting room and saw Laura and Jordan hugging each other, crying. I rushed into his room and he wasn't there. "Brendon I'm scared." I said starting to cry. "Tyler please calm down." He said hugging me. I went inside the waiting room and rushed over to Laura and Jordan. "Guys what happened, this is scaring me." Laura cupped my jaw and said "Josh had a heart attack." Sadness filled my body. "I should h-have s-stayed I'm s-sorry." I said hugging her. "They won't let us go in with him." I hugged Jordan and he smiled. I cried more than Brendon led me to a seat and hugged me. "It's ok babe I know he's doing better, I could feel it. It may sound crazy but I can just feel him getting better." Laura said patting my back. "Are you sure." I looked at her and she nodded. I fell asleep in the waiting room and woke up to a push on the shoulder. "Honey come, let's go see Josh." Laura said grabbing my hand. I immediately got up and I was no longer tired. I looked behind me and saw Brendon following me. When I walked in Josh was awake and Jordan was sitting next to him.
