"Where's Tyler mom, is he still here?" I heard as I walked through another patients curtain. "Tyty, you're here!" Josh had a big smile. I had one too, but it turned into a frown once I looked at all the machines hooked up to him. My eyes started to water and I tried my best not to cry but I couldn't. I ran to him and gently hugged him, trying not to touch any wires. "Ty why are you crying?" Josh patted my back. "You had a heart attack because of all of this mess." I said wiping the tears off my cheeks. "No, I had heart problems since I was little." I felt even more sad because the thought of him and his family dealing with this ever since he was little made me feel sorry. "I'm so sorry Josh." I wanted to sing him a lullaby and take care of him, as if he was my husband with a cold. I wanted to wrap my fingers around his pretty hair and play with it. "Tyler are you ok?" Josh said snapping me out of my day dream. "Mhm" I felt my face get hot. I sat down on a chair farthest away from him so he won't see. He looked behind me and saw Brendon. "Hi" Brendon said extending his arm. "Um hi?" Josh said grabbing hold of it to shake it. "I'm Tyler's best friend, I just came along with him so I could meet you. You sound like a very nice guy." Brendon was smiling. He had a big heart, the biggest. He looked so happy to meet Josh. "Oh ok, thank you!" Josh still looked confused and a bit upset. "Babe are you feeling better? Do you need food? Are you uncomfortable?" Laura said playing Josh's hand. "Mom I'm ok." He laughed and turned a bit red from the embarrassment his mother gave him. Laura is such a darling. If only I had a mother that cared about me like her. I have no mother at all though. I spent most of my life at a orphanage. It wasn't that bad there, I had plenty of friends. They were mostly girls because the boys always pushed me or hit me. They would call me names too, except for Brendon. He always treated me like if I was normal. He'd defend me a lot. Brendon is like the big brother I never had.
I sat in awe of the family for 2 minutes then Brendon tapped me on the shoulder and said "I have to go to work, see you later." I looked at Josh then looked back at Brendon. "I'll go with you because I have to change I put some random clothes on and this looks really bad." Josh frowned but then faked a small smile. "You look fine but will you come back soon?" Josh's eyes sparkled in the sun light. "Yes I promise." I said hugging Josh. He smiled then waved at me. I didn't want to leave him, but I looked awful. I exited his room then Brendon said "I feel really bad for him, poor dudes been having problems for a long time. Let me just say though. He definitely has a fucking thing for you. He's not bad looking too." Brendon said grinning while ordering a uber. "I don't know what to do. I'm a freak I can't talk to him without turning red like an idiot." Brendon clapped his hands then faced me. "I got you! Try pretending like he's not your crush and it's just a stranger then look at him in the eyes and make some sort of movement when you talk so things won't be so tense. That's what I did when I first met Ryan." I breathed in and said "ok". Brendon looked at his phone then smiled. "Ouuuuu! Who is it Bren!" I nudged him on the shoulder. "Oh shut up." He showed me his phone and I saw a message that read "good morning babe." It was obviously from Ryan. Brendon replied so fast that his phone couldn't even manage to reach the commands in time. "Good morning." Is all he said, I was disappointed because I he should have said something more cute but that's what I would have done so I don't blame him. "Aww you guys are so cute." He looked at me then giggled. "He makes me really happy." I felt really happy for him to. Our uber stopped in front of us so he opened the doors and hopped in. "How are you guys doing." The uber driver sounded like me. He looked a lot like me too. "Good how about you." He looked at me from the rear view mirror then made a confused face, one like mine. "I'm doing good, if you guys want anything I have snacks and water in the pockets behind the seats, I'm Zack Joseph just in case there's something you need you can call me Zack." Zack Joseph, Joseph. I'm a Jospeh. Tyler Robert Jospeh. "I'm Tyler Joseph" I giggled. "I'm Brendon Urie." He giggled too. "Tyler Robert Joseph?" How did Zack know my name? "Yeah? How did you know my name?" I was honestly pretty scared. "No way, you're my brother!" My heart skipped a beat, did I possibly find my family? Brendon looked at me with a surprised look on his face. "W-what?". "If I wasn't driving I'd reach back there and give you a hug." He smiled and his eyes became watery as well as mine. "I've been searching for my family ever since I found out I wasn't normal. Do you mind going to my place for a bit and explaining everything to me?" I was so curious, I couldn't wait to meet all of my family, maybe Zack was an orphan to. We quickly got to my place and I told him to follow me, Brendon came along to. We sat down in the dining table and I made all of us coffee. "So do you know our mom and dad?" His expression didn't change much. "Yeah, it's our dad, mom, Jay, Madison, then there's me. My mom always said she once had a kid one year older than me but she was homeless and wanted you to have a better life. She named you Tyler because she thought it sounded innocent then Robert after her brother which her mom had a miscarriage with." He looked down at his coffee then stirred it with the spoon. "Oh, I respect her decision. I'm sure she's a great mother. Is there anything else I should know about you guys?" Zack nodded and said "not much. Do you want to meet them some day this week?" I nodded and said "my friend is really sick and I don't have time to focus on anything else maybe next week?" I didn't know how to react about everything, it didn't seem true. I've been waiting for this moment all my life yet I'm not feeling that type of lovely vibe I get from Josh and his family. "More like his boyfriend." Brendon joked. "Look I'm gay but he's not my boyfriend." I said giggling. Zack covered his mouth. "Mom will not accept that. I'm sorry Tyler I have to go." With that he grabbed his keys then ran out the door. "Please come back I need more answers!" I began to cry. This is all I ever wanted and my sexuality destroyed that. "I'm a freak. I'm a sinner, my family doesn't like sinners. "Brendon I don't want to be gay! God doesn't like it!" Brendon hushed me then hugged me. "God said to respect and love everyone to. Everyone's unique ok? It's ok to be gay!" He said while patting my back. "Are you sure?" He pulled away and made me face him. "You know what if they won't accept it, fuck them you were just fine without them!" He had a point but I just want to know what it feels like to have the support of a family. Brendon found his and they support him! I sobbed in his arms for a while then he stood me up and said "Josh is waiting for you." He was right. Brendon was always right. "Yeah I know." I headed to my closet to pick out an outfit then I heard Brendon's voice in the distance saying "I have to go, bye!". "Bye!" I wanted to wear a skirt so I can show Josh how pretty I look, but maybe he was just like "mom", and he won't like it. I wish I was a girl. Instead I wore a bright pink hoodie and some black ripped jeans. I put on some mascara and a bit of highlighter. I skated down to the hospital listening to Brendon's music ideas. He liked to sing. He's really good at it. Brendon's just a perfect angel.
