Use Your Words

Other half (written with Chloe Rowe)

Ive always been slightly out of sync with everyone.

All my life feeling like I'm one step behind

Or in front but never equal. I'd been called

A freak, a loner, abnormal, a loser but really

I just didn't quite fit along side people.

Until I met her, with her disposition against people.

I feel like I'm walking beside her not behind her,

I've found my person to be in sync with.

Neither of us find people easy to get on with;

She can't read them and they make me anxious.

But yet I never know where I stand with her

Am I beside her or as always just one step behind?

I've always been slightly wary of everyone

All my life staying a few steps away

Always out of kicking distance

I'd been called

Emotionless, abusive, sociopathic, a monster

But really

I was scared to get hurt again

Until I met her

She understands why im terrified

I feel like I can lean on her not run from her

Every emotion I felt before had been faked

But she got behind the mask and made me more sane

After 10 years in shutdown she brought me back home

And though the sting of the belt is never far from my mind

Songs of hatred turned to love for the first time in my life

That's why we work

We're both a little broken

I love her in ways she could never imagine

But yet I never know where I stand with her

Am I beside her or is she staying just one step behind