Use Your Words

Little less insane(x)

Have you ever had an anxiety attack?

A voice in your head telling you what you lack?

It's there all the time, but when things get quiet

The voice gets louder and it's harder to fight it.

That when the attacks take over, the voice takes control.

You think that silence is nice but that peace has a toll.

It starts up quietly, whispering that I can't do anything right.

It gets louder and louder all through the night.

Till its shouting and screaming everything I hate

About myself, till its too much to take too late.

Then I can't breathe the voice is all I hear

I panic and it continues to Lear.

There's only 3 things in this world that stop the voice.

One is to fill my head with any other loud noise.

That's why my headphone stays in at all times.

I remember all the lyrics and beats and the rhymes

Of every song just to shut it all out

And make the voice not quite so loud.

This doesn't always work, I'm still always on edge.

Waiting for something To push me off the ledge

And into the darkness anxiety brings.

All the simple little things they run rings

Around my mind not letting me rest.

Putting my mental stability to the test.

Another would be to take a knife to my skin.

Let the anxiety bleed out from within.

It gave me a false sense of control over the panic

But sometimes I would become quite manic.

Attacking my body just to get some quiet

But it would kick start a full blown riot

Of self hate and anxiety. They fueled each other.

They lined up one after another.

Never letting me rest from the voices and thoughts.

I wanted my brain to calm and processes to be at naught

But something was always triggering one or the other;

There was no way to escape I have no cover.

But now I've found something new

To stop the voice. That thing is you.

You are simply the best thing to come into my life

To save me from the voice and the knife.

You listen and you keep me safe from myself.

You really care about me and my mental health.

You don't get tired of breakdowns night and night,

You reassure and promise me you'll make everything alright.

With you I feel safe and protected And I no longer feel affected

by the things that used to cause me pain.

You make me feel a little less insane.