It's You Who I Love (BTS FANFIC IMAGINE) [COMPLETED]

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He squeezed my hands and I felt a little hope. I looked at him as he smiled despite of crying.

"Listen to me. I'm ... I'm doing this for you." he said wiping my tears.

I shook my head. "For me? I can't get you!" I said

"I saw how you love him." he started explaining. "Open your heart <Y/N> ... you love Jung Kook." He said. I was awed by his words. It made me zippered my mouth and I started listening to him. "You love him not just as your best friend. You love him more than that." He said crying. I felt his pain saying those to me.

"What?!" I said as I can't believe his words. "Jin! What the hell are you saying?" I asked him shaking his hand. "Wake up! What are you saying! Is this a joke!?" I said trying to change his mind.

He got my shoulders and shushes me. I then stopped moving and just look at him whispering his name.

"Let me do this for you, <Y/N>." He continued. "I don't like you to choose between us ... "he paused "So I decided to let you go." He said. "Let me swallow my pride and give up. You're the one that I love the most but ... let me be the one to say goodbye." He said bowing down as he wept. He doesn't want me to see him cry.

"Jin~ No~ No~ No! No! NO!!!!" I started shouting at him to express my disagreement! He can't get me. I don't want him to do this. I don't want him to leave me.

"Take care ..." he can hardly say a word. "Take care of him ... and ... and be happy with him" he said lifting his head and looking at me.

"How can you say those words to me?! How can you push me away just like this!? Jin you don't need to do this. You don't need to leave me!" I exclaimed for him to consider my feelings.  But he's too hard headed.

He knelt down from sitting. He hugged me tightly as we were both weeping. "Jin no! please?" I tried my luck again. He hugged me tighter. He stood up and bent down with my face in his hands. He kissed my forehead slowly and whispered 'goodbye'. Just by that and he started walking towards the door.

"JIN!" I screamed as I stood up. He paused but he's not looking back at me. "Do you really want to leave me? Do you really want to break up with me? Seriously?" I asked him. I waited for a response but I didn't hear any word from him.

"If you do this ... Who will love you? Do you think any other girl would dare to love you? You're hard headed. You're unpredictable. You're one sided. Sometimes you're stupid. But despite of all of that I chose to love you!" I said trying to convince him.

"Now ... if ... if you go out of this room ..." I took a deep breath to say my word. "I will never go back to you." I said weeping as I finished my last sentence. I was hoping that he would turn around and be back. "Come back ... please?" I was desperately hoping for it.

"Im ..." I tried to stop my breathing to hear his response. "I'm sorry." He said and went out of the port leaving me.

I bit my lip as I saw him walking out of the door. I really can't believe he gave up on me. I was left weeping on the floor as I felt pain in my whole entity. I cried like a kid. Jin left me. Jin gave up on me. I screamed my heart out on the port. My heart hurts. This pain kills me. This pain is literally killing me! I sobbed on the couch as I weep.

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Blood's bursting from Jin's right hand. He ran at the roof top from the port. He was staring at the fresh blood stains on the wall that he made. One last punch and he's over it. Jin turned around, leaned on the wall and sat down.

The pain he's feeling from his broken arm isn't comparable from the pain that he got in his heart. He looked at the sky and started tearing out again.

He himself gave up on his love. He just did the thing that he can't imagine he can do.

"Sorry ... I'm sorry ... I'm sorry" that's all he's saying repeatedly.

Jin closed his eyes and he saw a familiar scene. It was you and your reaction inside Jung Kook's room. He was watching you all throughout.  And from outside, he felt your care, and love to him. He left the hospital without even saying goodbye to you.

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After some hours, he came back to the hospital to bring you packed meal that he personally cooked for you. He's pretty sure that you don't want to leave the room so he volunteered to bring you some.  But as he got in the hospital, he forgot something. He forgot to bring you extra clothing for you. Fortunate enough, he saw Doc. Gu who was about to enter the room. He asked her if she could give it to you and Doc Gu agreed. He ran immediately to get through your unit.

He tried his best to look for your closet. And when he found it, he pulled a pair of shirt and pants for you. But as he pulled another shirt at the bottom of the pile of clothes, pieces of letters fell. He picked it up to put it back but he was drawn to it. He sat down on your bed and began reading those. Those are the letters of Jung Kook that you got from his letter room.

After reading the last letter, Jin dropped off his body in your bed. He stared at the ceiling as he gave a sigh. Now, he understands. Now he knows.

'If you're in my situation ... I'm sure you will be doing the same thing.' Jung Kook's statement echoed in Jin's ears. He closed his eyes and took a deep breath. He smirked and opened his eyes as he went sitting down again.

"Yah." He said. "I will be doing the same." He agreed.

"And I will be doing the thing." He said as a tear fell down from his left eye.

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