Friends (KatsuDeku)

Bakugou-kun, have you seen Deku-kun?

7.

It's always been the same dream. He never gets it. It's a fucking dream. Whenever he tries to remember, all the pieces start to fade, he can't grasp it enough to understand. He only remembers that one thing.

Deku getting hurt.

That part was like HD. And it's always different. It either an accident or a villain, but now it's been Izuku hurting himself. Just crying and saying something to him. Jumping from a building, overdosing with goddamn pills, or slitting his own throat. And he is always there. Saving him? Doesn't sound like him though...

Katsuki wakes up and runs to the bathroom and straight up pukes in the sink. The pounding fear always stays for awhile. His heart beating until his ears ringed, waking up with a cold sweat, panting, and just staring at his own calloused hands, wondering why there wasn't any blood on them. His or Deku's?

It's a nightmare. Katsuki knows it. Maybe guilt has finally caught up with him. School has been great, even with some idiots but did he really deserved it? To be living your dreams and forgetting the fucked up shit you did before?

Especially when you see that reminder every single day in school?

(You're a monster. Kacchan,  you don't deserve to be a hero.)

An ugly voice reminds him and Katsuki grits his teeth. Don't be like this. You're going to be a goddamn hero. I don't care what other people think.

Kacchan.

Just one. The image of that person's green forest hair, those freckles that spreads on his cheeks like a constellation, that big happy smile that makes his heart warm. Deku. He cares only for one person.

(You don't deserve it. Kacchan.)

"I forgive you, I truly do, so you should forgive yourself." Izuku's voice whispered in his mind. It felt familiar yet unfamiliar.

Katsuki laughs, covering a palm over his head in disbelief. What the heck am I thinking? Did I want him to forgive me that badly?

Katsuki sit up quietly on his bed and walks across the room to start another day. Wishing that these dreams would stop...

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Katsuki sits on his desk 15 minutes before class starts. Like clockwork. Most of the class is in but he doesn't see the familiar green bushy hair who sits behind him. Weird. He usually comes 30 minutes before class like the nerd he is.

The familiar fear settles in Katsuki's gut. Deku isn't here. Izu---

The door bangs open and a sigh of relief escapes Katsuki when he sees the nerd come in. Do the usual scowl, Katsuki. I wasn't worried of the fucker.

He sees Izuku greet the others with the usual tone and smile but from time to time, he sees Deku's smile crack. Something happened...Katsuki shakes his head to ease the thought. I don't care.

It seems Deku's friends didn't notice since they were cheerfully chatting up in front.

Katsuki takes a look again and sees Deku staring at him. His mouth shut tight but his eyes says everything. Sadness. And that look reminded him of his dreams...the fear in his gut intensified, Katsuki freezing up as he stares at Izuku's eyes.

The bell rang. Izuku looks away and heads for his seat behind Katsuki quietly.

Katsuki doesn't look back to ask what's wrong.

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"Bakugou-kun, have you seen Deku-kun?"

Uraraka's voice shakes Katsuki up from his nap during break time. "The fuck?"

Uraraka continued, ignoring Katsuki's rude response. "He didn't come back from his visit to the bathroom. It's almost time for class."

Katsuki looked ahead to the door, waiting for Deku to come inside. The feeling of fear resurfaced. His heart pounding. He almost wanted to leave and find the nerd himself but he stopped himself. It's not like him to be worried. He's not usually like this.

"I don't care." Katsuki lied and was given a subtle look from Uraraka like he's talking bullshit.

Before he could talk smack to her in response, the door opened. It wasn't Deku but All Might.

"I am here!" All Might said as entered the room.

"All Might? Why are you here? We were supposed to have a class with Aizawa-sensei." Mina asked.

"Aizawa-sensei is a little busy right now so I'm here to tell you that there will be no classes for the remaining day!" All Might said and the whole class cheered!

Except for Katsuki. Still looking at the door, waiting for that nerd to come.

"And young Bakugou" Katsuki looks back to All Might, serious. "We need to talk..."

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Oh no. It's Katsuki's perspective :p what happened to Izuku? A little explanation why Katsuki is always so perceptive on Izuku's attempts from the previous loops.

It maybe the universe. But Katsuki is not one to ignore anything when it comes to Izuku. Hahahaha. No angst this chapter. Not yet. :P thank you for the views and votes! I really really appreciate it!