Friends (KatsuDeku)

I hope so too.

3.

Izuku woke up on his bed crying. It seemed he wasn't loud enough that the others had to wake him up like last time. He was drenched with his own sweat and was shivering as the cold night breeze entered his dorm room when he left the window open.

It took a while for Izuku to stand up to close his opened window. He was shivering more from the memory of Katsuki dying twice in his arms compared to the cold. He was still tearing up when he can remembered it so clearly in his mind like it was HD.

"Kacchan..." Izuku whispered, just so he could feel the way the name sounded on his lips, like when he remembered screaming it endlessly at the top of his lungs.

He had to see him. He just needed to see him. Alive.

He got out of bed, ignoring that he was sticky from his own sweat. He walked out slowly from his room towards Katsuki's. His own heart beating wild, his breathing fast.

He's here. Kacchan's here. He's alive. Please. Kacchan.

Izuku gave three raps on the door and waited. It was around 2 AM so Izuku thought that Katsuki was sleeping but the images of him dead swirled in Izuku's mind. He became worried and knocked again, a little too hard and a little too fast. Izuku panicked when no one answered, he was about to kick the door down when it suddenly opened.

"The fuck is disturbing me?!"

Katsuki demanded, his bed hair sticking out of his usual spikes and was rubbing his eyes. He was ready to yell at the fucker who decided to wake him up but was shocked to see it was Deku. Deku who was drenched with sweat and looked like he was about to cry.

"Kacchan. Kacchan. You're here. You're here. Thank God." Izuku was relieved, tears on the verge to fall. He felt his legs shaking and was about to buckle but a hand caught him by the arm before he fell.

"Fuck, Deku! What happened to you?!" Katsuki holding Izuku up. He never saw Deku like this.

Izuku almost told him everything but the second he looked at that worried rubylike eyes, he was reminded that this all started when he asked Katsuki to be friends again.

Everytime. Every single time, Kacchan protected me. Died for me. Because I was his friend.

Izuku pulled slapped Katsuki's hand away and Katsuki couldnt help but look shocked.

"I'm okay..." Izuku backed away from Katsuki like his own presence here right now could get Katsuki killed.

"Shit nerd! Tell me what happened since the very second you saw my face, you fucking cried like you thought I wasn't going to answer my own fucking door!!" Katsuki stomped his way towards Deku who was already going for the elevator.

"It's not..." Izuku can't explain it because he doesn't even understand. All he knows that ever since they became friends again, Katsuki dies. "Just...leave me alone..."

"Well, fuck you! You knocked on my door!" Katsuki caught Izuku's wrist before he entered the elevator.

"Kacchan, mind your own business!" Izuku said, his own voice getting high. His own thoughts jumbling inside his head, he doesn't understand what's happening to him but the less he interacts with Katsuki the more chances he survives, right?

"Damn it, Deku! I thought we were fri--"

"NO!"

Katsuki lets go of Izuku. Shocked. Hurt.

"No!" Izuku repeated himself. He knows he sounded harsh but he had to do it. That very word he doesn't want on Katsuki's lips. That word he said as he died on his arms. He can't handle it. Not again.

"We're not friends, Kacchan."

I'm sorry.

The words felt like acid, his words betraying his own heart. Tears fell on his cheeks.

"I don't want us to be."

I'm so sorry.

"Leave me alone...please..." Izuku finally said as he entered the elevator. His eyes looking straight at Katsuki's frustrated look.

"You fucker. Hope you die. " Katsuki spat at him when the elevator started to close.

Izuku winced. Even if it's the usual badmouthing, this time he felt it like a knife. He deserved that, he thought.

"I hope so too." Izuku sadly said and the elevator door shuts before he could see Katsuki's reaction.

Izuku cried himself to sleep that night, praying that everything was a nightmare.

I'm so sorry! Even I'm hurt! Hope you like it!!