Mental Institution, N27.

21

My eyes closed as the memories filled my head, it was painful to remember. He's not here and remembering him is doing me no good, I've grown so fond of him that I can't stand seconds away from him yet I stayed nearly a month and every single second is painful.

His face, his eyes and especially his lips are hunting my dreams, how could you fall so in love with a person you didn't even spend that much time with?

Maybe it was that I adored every second I spent with him, every second felt like years and I felt closer to him in those few months he spent in the hospital than I did to anyone else. I fell in love with everything he is but he didn't love me, he loved Angeline. He'll never be ready to let go of her. Never.

I sighed and turned to the other side on my bed, my eyes heavy with sleep yet my brain is keeping me wide awake. I was so worried for him, what if they beat him up? What if they inject him with substances that could highly affect his body and his health? What if he's crying there waiting for someone to arrive and take him away from all of this torture? I squeezed my eyes shut and held onto my bed sheets tightly, fisting the material as I fought the threatening tears.

It's okay if I can't have him, It's okay if he's not in love with me back, it doesn't matter that I'll have my heart broken. It doesn't matter at all, all I want is Zayn to be safe and sane.

I took deep breaths before I decided that I can't fall asleep right now and got off my bed, walking downstairs to see Hatchi, my dog, asleep on the couch. I walked over to him and sat down next to him, he felt my presence making him immediately wake up and look up at me. I patted his head and started running my fingers through his hair before he stood and placed himself on my lap, curling into a ball.

I felt myself managing to smile at his cute gesture and placed my hands over his petite body. My mind didn't wait much longer though before his face flashed before my eyes making me let out a stressed sigh and throw my head back. I can't get him out of my mind.

"Hey, Hatchi, want to go for a walk?" I whispered to him as I placed my fingers under his chin and scrateched there making him sway his small tail in happiness.

"I'll take it as a yes then." I forced a smile as he jumped off my lap and to the front door in excitmenet, I was in a crop top and a sweatpants so I just took my jacket and put it on. I tied Hatchi's leashes to his collar and put on my sneakers.

I opened the door and closed it behind me as the cool fresh air hit my face, throwing my hair back. Hatchi started running and pulling me with him making me tug on the leashes so he could slow down. He did and I walked in absolute peace.

The air pushed my hair out of my face as I walked, Hatchi looking happy as ever as he barked at literally nothing while I had a frown on my face as I thought about all the patients in danger because of me, only me. I let that happen because I was a coward and refused to face everyone there. How could I be so stupid? I scolded myself mentally as I walked slowly not knowing where I was going, I was just walking.

Love. I don't know what love is but that strong feeling I have whenever my eyes land on him, his hazel eyes and his pink full lips. I always find myself distracted by him, those hazel eyes when they looked at me I felt myself melt under his gaze, when his lips touched mine I felt myself wanting more and wanting those lips to touch every part of my skin.

I shivered as I remembered the way his lips felt on my lips, my jaw and my neck. Oh how his lips felt on my neck, my heart fluttered at the memory.

I miss him so much.

My eyes watered but I blinked the tears away, not wanting to cry right now. I looked around me and I didn't realise that I went so far away from my house. I saw a road on the left side of me, the road we took when we went to look for the patients. My heart rate picked up speed as I stared at the road.

I bit down on my bottom lip, deciding whether should I just go there or go back home. I hesitated for a few minutes before taking small steps towards that road. What If I found him? I could bring him home on my own, six people are easily to be recognized but one person and a dog can hardly be recognized.

I hope Hatchi stays quiet.

I made my way through the creepy dark road in slow and careful steps, making sure to not make a sound. Hatchi's excitement died down as soon as we stepped foot onto that road, he was scared, I can tell. I picked him up and hugged him close to my chest, hoping that it would reassure him that I'm here with him.

It was so dark, I barely see anything but I couldn't go back now if there's atleast 1% chance of finding Zayn and the other patients, I have to do something. I can't just go sleep peacefully like there's nothing happening at all.

I walked as quietly as I can till I recognized the place that the men stopped us in, I furrowed my eyebrows as I looked around me, holding Hatchi to me tightly. He let out a scared noise as he placed his face in my arm, shielding his eyes from this creepy place.

I walked further into the road, feeling the air becoming colder than before making me shiver. I was scared, there was no doubt. It was a bad idea to come here all alone with my smallest dog, I should've brought Sky or Comanche instead. Hatchi is really scared and I feel really guilty for bringing him here as I squeezed his small frame, telling him that he's safe with me.

The more I walked further and further the more I felt so uncomfortable, there's something wrong. I can feel it. I took a deep breath before resuming my way as I prayed silently to find Zayn, I want to make sure he's okay.

I looked down at Hatchi, about to tell him to go home and shoo him back but I couldn't let him wonder around alone. He's just a small dog, I know that he could make his way back but I will be worried to death of he got separated from me alone, I'd rather have him with me even if he was with me in danger.

"Perrie!"

A loud scream calling my name echoed through the place making my heart drop to my feet, I can recognize this voice anywhere, It's him. My breath hitched as I turned around, my head turning from side to side trying to detect where the sound is coming from.

"Perrie! Help me!"

A pained scream echoed yet again after he had called my name making my eyes water, his pained scream tugging hard at my heart making it ache for him, what are they doing to him? God, please keep him safe.

"Zayn! Where are you?!" I yelled at the top of my lungs, still turning around myself, panicked. I ran further into the same straight line I've been walking in for half an hour, hearing the pained screams closer. I'm on the right way.

"Perrie!"

I gulped down my worry and ran faster in that damn straight line, my eyes scanning the distance infront of me but I saw nothing. It was way too dark. I pursed my lips and stopped in my place, looking around.

There was nothing, I can't see anything but I can hear the voices, the call for help and the pained screams. It was so loud that it can hunt me in dreams.

I didn't even know I was crying till I felt tears on my hand that were wrapped around Hatchi, He let out a quiet noise letting me know that he's scared as he pushed his face more into my arm.

"Zayn! Zayn!" I yelled, my voice cracking at the end, tears rolling down my cheeks as my hands holding onto my dog tightly, trying to gain some comfort from him but no luck, I was worried to death.

I yelled Zayn's name one more time before I felt something heavy hitting the back of my head making me unwillingly drop Hatchi from my hands to hold the back of my head as I let out a pained scream, my vision blurred as I dropped to the floor and the last thing I heard was Hatchi growling and barking at something rather someone and the sound of my body falling to the floor with a thud.