White Paladin

Chapter 20

Lance stood there as Lotor held Shiro behind his sword, Lance didn't know what to do... Shiro couldn't be killed, what would happen to team Voltron if he was? Lance lunged forward but his fingers slipped off his armour and Lotor shoved Shiro off the edge but Lance barely caught him.
"Just let go" Shiro grunted as Lance slipped off, barely holding the both of them.
"Pathetic" He heard Lotor say as the boot steps faded, again? He was being abandoned again? No he wasn't... Lotor had been temporary, ya that's what he had been.
"Lance just let go Ill be fine" Shiro grunted, using his jet pack to help Lance but he knew it would run out of fuel soon.
"Lance! Ill be fine, how do you think I survived the Galra ship?" Shiro chuckled,
"I'm.... letting go" Lance mumbled softly, one finger at a time until Shiro was jerked away, the black paladin armour slowly fading as he fell. Lance lay there for a few seconds, this didn't happen... this was all just a bad dream right? Nothing bad, but then Lance was snapped back to reality as boot steps crunched through the snow, running... getting closer and just as they were at least ten steps away Lance jerked himself up and moved away, stumbling on his knees that he couldn't feel from how long he had been laying on the snow.
Both Matt and Keith were sitting by the edge, peering over, he saw the desperate look in their eyes, hoping that Shiro was just barely hanging onto the edge and that he was fine. But then the realization hit them, he was gone...
"No... No not again please!" Keith cried out, tears were building up in his eyes as he gripped the ground, Matt just sat there, blanked faced, Pidge stepped behind him and rested their hand on his shoulder, he could barely imagine what they were going through, losing Shiro? For the second time?
Lance barely moved, to scared to get a reaction he wouldn't like from them.
"Shiro!" Keith cried out in a heart wrenching cry, tears were streaming down his face, dripping down into the snow, he barely pulled himself up and staggered towards Lance.
"Please don't tell me you did this" He said weakly,
Lance just sat there, in a way he had done it, but in another he hadn't.
"Keith-" Lance started but he didn't know what to say... this wasn't good, this wasn't something he could run away from.
"Please Lance, tell me it wasn't you" He whimpered, holding his bayard up.
Then he lunged, it was weak though and Lance easily pushed him away before grabbing him and pulling him down, and surprisingly he didn't resist.
"Keith I'm sorry"
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Keith looked away at the name that Lance called him, really? Keithy?
"So you here to give me a kiss on my boo boo?" Lance said sarcastically, pulling himself up and off the bed, he staggered and Keith moved to help him but Lance steadied himself.
"Trust me, I can take a pounding, you aren't the first" Lance mumbled and that made Keith wonder what he meant, maybe he got in a lot of fights? But then again he never really saw him when he came after beating some senior.
"Well I wanted to-" Keith was cut off by Lance again, 
"Say you're sorry" Lance said blankly as he did something, filling out something.
Keith was a bit surprised that Lance knew what he was going to say, Lance glanced back, he raised an eyebrow and Keith realized that he was being stubborn and cocky.
"Well I'm going, Hunk or Pidge probably left a crap ton of homework" Lance said as he walked by Keith, he gave him a smile and continued walking.
Keith stood there before he turned on his heels but by the time he had found the courage to turn around and talk to him  Lance was gone, out of sight.
Keith took a few steps forward and peeked out the glass but he wasn't there, in fact the hallways were bare besides a few loners.
Letting out a sigh Keith left the nurse's office without a word, well his chance has passed him like a bullet, why did he always freeze up when he was talking to him? His heart always started racing and he got shaky but he didn't know why...
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Lance sat there, holding Keith, each hand holding one of Keith's to restrict him from punching.
Another sob racked the red paladin, tears streamed down and hit the snow,
"He's gone... I cant loose him again, I can't... Ive lost everyone" He whimpered, slumping and resting his head on Lance's shoulder,
Now that made Lance wonder, Keith seemed so heart broken about this, and yes he could understand why but a little voice whispered that something was going on, that Keith wasn't in love with Lance but with Shiro...
'No they were basically brothers' he thought but the voice kept nagging him.
"Keith buddy, lets go"  Lance said as he, with a lot of difficulty, pulled Keith up, he stumbled but Keith walked away, peering over the edge before turning to Pidge,
"are you sure he didn't survive?" Keith asked, rubbing the tears away with a bit too much force, as if angry at himself for letting people see him cry,
"I'm sure, my readings are going off the charts" they said and Keith shook his head,
"don't worry Keith, we'll find him" Allura said, she looked over at Lance, he knew what the look meant.
'They need me.... till the find Shiro and then they'll just use me' He thought as he took a deep breath, about to say something before being cut off by Allura again
"We need to leave, any longer and I'm afraid the lines might freeze" She muttered and everyone slowly agreed, Matt stumbling up and walking back slowly, head down and eyes probably averted towards the ground.
Keith stood by the edge though, silent, barely shivering or flinching at how cold it was becoming, slowly Lance walked over and raised his arm to put on his shoulder, tell him something cheesy to make him laugh, but he didn't expect this.
As soon as he raised his arm, Keith turned around and punched him, not the one he gave him at the garrison, but the kind that would probably give someone a concussion.
Lance stumbled back, raising his hand to his face to find blood dripping from his nose and lip,
"Its all your fault!" Keith yelled, he was angry, probably furious.
"Keith, calm down" Lance said but Keith didn't hear it, and if he did he had ignored it.
"If you hadn't left! If you had just stayed, Shiro probably wouldn't be dead!" Keith yelled throwing another punch at Lance, to dazed from the last he received it with a grunt, which was followed by a groan of pain.
Blood dripped into the snow,
"If you hadn't joined up with Lotor!" He continued
"Maybe if you had just never applied for the Garrison none of this would have happened!" He yelled, before his eyes widened, everything else had felt like needle pricks to Lance's heart but that? That just crossed a line.
"Maybe I should've stayed back? But did I? No... You're probably right, I should've just stayed back" Lance muttered as he picked himself up,
Keith stood there, shocked at himself for saying something like that, but Lance brushed it off, well at least he tried to, those words fed his insecurities,
'useless'
'Stupid'
'Unneeded'
And Lance tried to put them to the back of his mind but they were rearing their ugly faces, little tears prickled in the corners of his eyes.
"You're right, I probably should have stayed back, I mean you guys have all the paladins, so what does that make me?" Lance asked,
"A paladin of Voltron, thats what you are" Keith said and Lance chuckled which was followed by a scoff,
"Really Keith? Are you joking with me? Besides, if you had the chance to save Shiro but I'd have to die instead you'd take it in a heartbeat" Lance grumbled,
"What? What are you talking about?" Keith asked, his tense shoulders slumping
"Don't act like you don't know!" Lance shouted, his heart was racing, he didn't have any proof but still... maybe he was just confused, Maybe Keith was just worried? Right of course.
"Lance there's nothing between Shiro and I" Keith said and watched as Lance raised his arms
"Right then, go ahead and tell me that isn't true" He said, a painful look in his eyes was mimicked in Keith's,
"Lance... we can sort this out on the castle" Keith told him
"Ha right, taking lead and telling me there's nothing between the two of you" He said and paused, he lowered his arms and chuckled, a sad chuckle, his eyes trying to show happiness but instead showed sadness and guilt, for what? For many things, guilty he couldn't save Shiro, sad he couldn't help Keith, and that was just to name two of them.
"But what would I know Keith?" Lance said, taking a small pause as a sad smile tugged onto his lips
"I'm just a boy from Cuba after all"

❌SPOILER WARNING; DONT READ FARTHER IF YOU DONT WANT SPOILERS ❌

A/N; Okay so I dont know how many of you watched season four but HOLY JESUS CHRIST, MATT IS A FRICKEN LIVING MEME.
LIKE I THOUGHT HE'D BE GRUMPY AND MOODY BUT HES A FRICKEN LIVING MEME AND MY GOD WHEN PIDGE WAS FIRST TRACKING HIM AND SHE THOUGHT HE WAS DEAD, MY HEART LITERALLY BROKE IN TWO.
AND WHY DID LANCE AND KEITH GET BARELY ANY SCREEN TIME, LIKE IK ITS TO DEVELOP THE OTHER CHARACTERS BUT STILL AND WHEN KEITH WAS GOING TO SACRIFICE HIMSELF I WAS LEGIT SCREAMING LIKE THANK GOD LOTOR CAME BY AnD FRICKEN WRECKED ThAT SHEILD AAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

A/N; who ever is reporting comments please stop, yes I know they're swearing, it is their choice and if they wish too then they can, I won't restrict someone, so please stop reporting comments, its getting annoying finding comments that I like and think are funny are being reported, whoever you are please stop, its getting on my nerves