I want you back (manan)

A Compromise

"And you fucking did all these just to keep Aaru with you ??? Are you mad manik how could you??" A ragging cabir said huffing like a mad bull.
"Did I had a choice cabir ?? She was taking her away dude and I can't sit and see them going away from me " i tried to justify my act to cabir.
"Ohh really Malhotra then where was your fucking senses three years back when they were going away from you " he said accusing me more , he added  "and not to forget it was your fucking decision too , ohh how can I forgot yours so called mutual decision to part your ways , bluddy hell you guys ruined each other completely and accuse each other for ruining each other till now.  Whenever I see any hope for you guys coming together, always one of you burst my bubble and this time you both again did the same" cabir said while disappointment was written all over his face.
"You know cabir I regret it in my every breath .... I wish I could go back in my past and change my all fullish acts" I said but not looking at cabir's eyes. Pulling my hairs with my own hands I throw my head back to the sofa and exhaled a long breath .
"I want to say a thing manik ... I know whatever you did was just the reaction of your impulsiveness  but intensionally or unintentionally you hurt her, again . She have already suffered a lot .. I mean you both suffered but she  suffered more , having a baby taking Caring of her keeping her happy needs more effort than earning money , whatever you think of her but one thing can never change that she have given her hundred percent for keeping her relationship secure , more than you did " he said keeping his hands on my shoulders pressing it a bit, I looked at him and he give me a disappointed look again which made my eyes wet. Tossing his hand aside I stud up.
" I need some alone time cabir , thank you for being always there when I need you the most" I said and hugged him and he to give me a tight much needed hug, after coming out of hug he bid bye and left me in my haunted house alone. Coming in my room felling with utter darkness I placed my energy drained body on the soft mattress. Closing my eyes I recalled our journey from beautiful marriage to our dead full separation.

(All lines below written in italic are manik's pov of their journey from beginning to till now but.......... In fast forward....{this story basically based on present track} ).

An arrange marriage was never my thing but our destiny was planned before we came into the world , firstly I thought my mother is literally forcing me for marriage when my full focus was in making my career , I was a new comer at that time  and getting married was something I can't afford but after lots of pleading my mother make me ready to say 'yes' and after a week I was setting in front of a young lady and she was none other than my soon to be wedded wife. Yeppp I decided that she would be my wife because after seeing her I wasn't able to see anything she was every where in my eyes my mind and my hurt too. Though I can easily tell that she was  not ready for this sudden marriage but we both said 'yes'. After our first meeting exactly after two weeks we met again and again slowly our arrange marriage was turning into love marriage and we both were happy , we decided to marry each other but when we both will achieve our goals. Things were going awesome I was getting many projects and nandini was doing well too.  But after 3 months nandini's dad literally warned us that we should get married soon or else he will get nandini married to someone else , it wasn't a dead warning he was damn serious. So fearing to loose her I said yes though mentally I wasn't ready for the marriage nor financially but we did get married in next two weeks. It was a close affair or I should say only our family was involve in the matrimonial media has no idea about this at all. After our marriage i decided to keep our marriage secret and she agreed , we both have given each other time to cop up with the changes but having a beautiful wife you can't control more so within a month we consumed our marriage , one years of our marriage was blissful for us. But after that things started changing color my career was in the pick point where my small mistake was enough  to destroy my career. But someone close to us discloses that I m married  to media which cause a great damage people started accusing me for keeping a pure relationship a secret and some accuse for breaking contracts. It have taken me months to cover up the damage and when things are going well me and nandini both came in front of camera . One day nandini said she wanted to be a mother , it's not like I don't want to be called daddy by my own baby but my occupation didn't allowed me because during signing the contract some times male actors have to signed that during the shoot they can't get married or have children and cause I was a new comer I have to signed it too. One year ...  A whole year I denied nandini for a baby but after our 2nd anevarsary nandini said she was pregnant at that time I was the most happiest person but within days these news spread like fire in Forest. I lost 3 contracts back to back my frustration was increase day by day and nandini's mood swings made it more complicated , but exactly after 9 months I got my previous possession my treasure, My baby Aaru , things started to change I became more and more workoholic and stay out of country more than half of a year and whenever I got some time I started spending it with Aaru , unintentionally my relationship with nandini losses it's charm, we wasn't able to give each other the most needed time  and when nandini started saying this again and again that I m a not a good husband and father it started to hurt more , keeping each other away from us was all we decided and that makes the situation more worse and me being always out of country made it more worse. In our four year relationship when Aaru was one year and 5 months old me and nandini had a huge argument and we reach a point where we both were not able to bear each other more and that lead us to divorce. We both mutually decided and for Aaru's well being  I never filed for Aaru's custody and let nandini have her , but she became understanding after our separation more and she always allowed me to meet Aaru and we both tried to be a good parents in front of aaru . We always come together for Aaru and that proves us  good parents. We were always there in each other's bad days , always, may be late but we always made it.

A long tear made its way and I removed the tear that slipped out of my eyes. Picking Aaru's photo frame and kissing it I placed it on my hurt and closed my eyes.

"I m really sorry nandu and I promise this time I m not going to disappoint you again , I will gain your trust back , cause I want you back " I mumbled to myself with determination and tried to sleep.

Next part will be posted may be in mid night today itself or tomorrow. One of my reader wanted to have a closer of their relationship so here it is.

A genuine request plz don't ask me again n again about updates because I m a college student that to of 3rd year and have many works to do , whenever I will get time I will update it.

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Subhratri.