I want you back (manan)

Fear

Fearing that I'd love you more,
I stopped talking to you.

Little did I know ,
Love can grow in silence too.

Nandini pov

"Here is your keys ma'am , have a nice stay" the receptionist said with an extra sweetness in her voice. Though the change in her behavior is not something I can't guess the reason , having a handsome man with killer looks and a superstar in front of you can make any girls legs turn into jelly. Taking the keys from her and passing a tight smile I left while the helper boy helped me with our luggage. Following him we reached the top most floor of the the 5 star hotel room. Luxurious is the first name I spelled out of my lips looking at the breathtaking view in front of my eyes. The helper left placing the luggages on there places, instant I started exploring the room , it was indeed beautiful. After 2 minute of my exploring session I realized no one Disturbed me till now and having a baby like Aaru it's next to impossible, then reality knocked my brain I came out of the room for checking on Aaru and her dear daddy. I was searching them when my eyes spotted a beautiful view , manik was seating in stairs and Aaru on his lap and both where busy in laughing good knows what , their laughs were ecoing in the whole lobby , both were shaking because of the intensity of their high peached laughing session , Aaru was hugging manik and manik was trying to calm his over excited baby in which he was failing pathetically.
"Put a full stop on your laughing session idiots , Aaru let's get in and fresh n up "I said trying to bring them back from their own la la Land  , but surprisingly both just shrugged their shoulders.
"Now!!" I shouted again with high pitch and both  jumped on their places. Rising my one eyebrow I asked "what" when both of them were looking at me like I m a ghost but after few seconds manik picked Aaru up in his arms and make his way towards our room.
Why he is going in my room ?? Didn't he booked another room for himself ?? Ohh shitt not any fucking way I m gonna share a room with manik not even in my nightmares , I was furious but didn't said a thing and follow him back in my room.
"What are you doing here Malhotra?? " I can't hold on my emotions for to long so I just barged on him and he simply kept on walking till my bed and placed Aaru on bed he started removing her shoes. I looked at him for any answer or at least a reaction but he gave me none then my eyes landed on Aaru who was only looking at me , I can see fear in her eyes , she didn't wanted to let go his father not this time at least , I blinked my eyes for giving her assurance that I m not taking her dad away and again looked at manik who was busy in adoring his baby's feet. "I asked you something ?"  I again asked but maintaining a calm but authoritative voice."I m exactly where , where I truly belong , murty " he said and added " with my baby , and if I m not wrong than you was the only one who requested me ....ohh scratch that personally invited me to join the trip , isn't it murty??" He answered and I closed my eyes tightly. Ughhh why this man always bring out the worse in me ??why he is so annoying aiyappaa!!! I crept again like always to mine aiyappaa .When I opened my eyes after few seconds the view in front of me make me realize Aaru really missed out one of the most important moments in her life and it's her father. Manik was laying on bed and Aaru was sleeping keeping her head over his shoulder and tightly clutching manik by his waist. A lone tear fall from my eyes and I blinked my eyes few more times . Generally after a flight ride Aaru can't sleep but cause of lack of sleep she became cranky I always faced this problem since her birth but for the very first time I m seeing her sleeping so soundly in her father's arms like she belongs there. When I was adoring her another pair of eyes were adoring someone but it was not Aaru , those eyes belongs to manik who was looking at me trying to read mine inner conflict with myself but when our eyes met he like always avoided looking at me , may be he too have fear that I will read his eyes and he will be like a open book to me and his all secrets will be out.
Avoiding his stares I made my way towards the washroom not before taking out my clothes , closing the door behind I exhaled a long breath. After taking a long shower I come out of the bathroom , all I need right now is a sound sleep but having manik Malhotra this close is not giving me any relief , closing all the lights I came beside the bed , Aaru was sleeping in middle of the bed with manik on the left side not to forget he was shirtless showing all his glory with his mouth little open , just like a baby. I slapped my forehead for thinking about manik like this and made mine way towards the window.
October last and November first few days always been mine favorite, the  weather is so amazingly perfect and here in Parris the weather is more beautiful , the snow fall is making the atmosphere more beautiful , I pocked my nose into the window and giggled by the reflection of mine own.

"Sometimes it's good to forget your past and enjoy your present" a cold voice reach my ears and I shiverd by the intensity of the voice. I felt a warm body pressed against my back and a hot breath near mine earlobe.
"You was sleeping , na ??" Though I wanted to. Say it's not easy to forget our past because past is the only thing which make your present but my voice ditched me and instead of saying this I asked the most silly question.
"Trust me only for once try to look at your future you will forget what  your past was , future is what you can make better nor past , we all can only regret about our past but can't change it" he said I moved to look at him directly in his eyes. How can this man simply read me ?? Though I don't wanna admit it but his words did affect me , a future , a beautiful future is what I dreamed of for me and Aaru but what if we make some place for manik too in our future may be our future can be more beautiful like we always dreamed off. 
I came out of my imagination when manik moved his hand over my waist and bring me closer to him but I moved backwards showing my back to him just for avoiding any eye contact again cause this man can read me like a open book and this make me feel so fragile in front of him.
"Take your time I m ready to give you my entire life , u know why ?? Cause I trust you more than myself , whatever you will decide I will be always with you , and I promise you in that " he stated and again make me wonder did we really have a future together??? A beautiful we?? Us?? . We kept on standing there me looking at the stars and he at me holding me by mine waist with his both arms and head over my shoulders , if it have been any other day I would have pushed him on his butt but today it felt different he this close to me give me peace which I was longing since so long. After few more minutes he slowly untangled us from his grip and placing a long kiss over my back head he murmured "sleep , u need rest ,murty" and made his was towards the bed.
"Wear a shirt I have no interest tagging you along with your running nose tomorrow" I said enough loud for him to hear but I think like always he shrugged and slept on his stomach hugging Aaru without wearing a shirt. Shaking my head on him I searched the A.C. remote and made the temperature little warm so that he doesn't catch cold tomorrow. Making a place for myself in right side of bed I placed mine energy drained body on the soft mattress and closed my eyes but this fucking brain just can't stop functioning , idiot brain.

When you experienced a failed relationship you always feared from making a new relation but when you r trying to make a new relation with the same person with whom you have experienced a failed relation that's where things become complicated , that's not I don't trust you manik but the truth is still afraid from the new beginning , and there is absolutely no cure for mine fear. My thoughts came to a halt when I felt a little weight on my tummy looking down I noticed manik's hand on my tummy but rather than pushing it away I too kept mine other hand over his and closed my eyes.

I think I got a temporary cure of my fear.

And before I know I was in a deep sleep.

My wrist is still isn't recoverd and it's giving me a real tough time , but seriously sorry for such a long delay and a bigggggggg thank you for your patience , really means a lot . And again a sorry for not replying your comments , seriously I wasn't able to write that time.

Subhratri.