Writer's Block (My Book of Rants)

Confession Time

So some of you may or may not have noticed that I haven't been as active on here as I used to be. I'm not updating as much, I'm not really reading or anything either.

Well, the good old honest truth is, I'm just not up for anything lately.

I have literally no inspiration for writing in any of my stories. Every time I sit down and try to write something I hit a wall.

I mean that both literally and figuratively.

It's been hard for me to write out a chapter, and when I do I'm not satisfied with what I come up with.

I keep wanting to change everything even though I know that it's fine.

I guess I can stop being dramatic now and just get to the point: Writing isn't fun for me anymore.

I used to look forward to spending hours writing out a chapter, I was so happy to publish something new for you guys to read on a regular basis.

But then, things happened.

I don't want to go into detail, but let's just say some things came up that took away all of my usual enthusiasm for writing. Now that things have settled down I thought that I'd be able to get back to my regular writing schedule, but it was like I'd just completely burned out.

I didn't want to write in any of my stories.

I tried to get myself to write, especially since a lot of you have been waiting months for an update.

I just can't do it.

And after doing some serious thinking, I believe I've found the problem.

Ever since I joined Wattpad almost three years ago, I've pretty much only written one thing.

Fanfiction.

Lots, and lots of fanfiction.

To be more specific, Lord of the Rings.

That's basically all I've done since I joined Wattpad, and I can't believe I'm saying this, but I'm starting to get tired of it.

Like, really tired.

Now I'm not saying that I no longer enjoy the story because I do. I love Lord of the Rings, the story, the characters, it's what inspired me to begin writing.

But honestly, I think I need to take a step back from it for awhile.

I think I need to take a step back from fanfiction altogether.

What I love most about writing is being able to come up with new ideas, and while I've been able to do that with fanfiction, I also have plenty of my own original ideas that I want to try.

But I can't start those ideas if I'm constantly working on all these fanfics.

Which is why, for an unknown amount of time, I will be ceasing work on any of my current fanfictions.

I want to start focusing on my own original stories, I want to share these ideas with all of you. You've all been so supportive of me and have encouraged me to keep writing. I wouldn't be the writer I am now without you guys.

All of you deserve the very best from me, and I can't give you that if writing (something I love) is starting to feel more like work.

I have some new and original stories that I will begin posting on here shortly, and I can't wait to share them with you all.

My main goal is to become a better writer, and putting my own stories out there and seeing what people think of them is the best way for me to do that.

Now this doesn't mean that I won't ever continue my fanfics. Because despite what I said, I still love the stories and characters that I've begun to develop with them. I just need to go on a little, "holiday" for a bit.

For those of you reading Endless Shadows, I have some good news.

I have outlined the rest of the story and there will be about 8 chapters left before it is finished. Therefore, I will be finishing Endless Shadows before I go on my break.

As for the rest of my fanfics, you can expect a random chapter every now and then, but those will be few and far between.

One of these days I'll come back to them, but for now I want to put them aside for a bit and really see what I can do as far as writing goes.

To close, I just want to thank you guys for everything.

Every vote, every comment, every encouragement, all the feedback, it's all meant so much to me.

But most importantly, thank you all for your friendship.

You guys are some of the coolest people I've ever met, and I look forward to writing more stories for you all.

Alright, I'm out.