Remember When....

Woah

I look at her,

"Meagan what are you doing?" I asked and a smirk appeared on her face. I turned my head a little and gave her a questioning look. She smiled then bit her lip. She got closer then knelt down on the ground.
Oh fuck oh fuck what is she doing?! It was one time!
She looked up at me with those piercing blue eyes and I lost it. I bent down and kissed her so passionately. It was nothing like I've felt with Caylen. I felt her hands slide onto my ass and I pulled away from the kiss. She looked at me almost like she was testing me. Before I knew it, her hands were making their way under my shirt and up my torso. I crouched and sucked in my breath as I grabbed her hands from under my shirt.

"Okay this isn't cool you're really turning me on." I said a little upset that she was testing me.

She bit her lip and after she let her bottom lip free from in between her teeth, she smiled deviously and said,

"That's the goal babe."

I looked at her closely and I grabbed her hand and told her to get up off the floor. I cupped her face in my hands and crashed my lips onto hers. She started grabbing at my body and I picked her up. I turned around to slam her on my bed, her legs still wrapped around me. I disconnected our lips just to place them on her neck and leave a trail of kisses going up to her earlobe. I nibbles at her ear then whispered in her ear,

"Your turn." I let out a breath followed by an innocent giggle.

I kiss down her neck as I unbutton her ripped jeans. Her hand holds mine in its place and I look at her.

"Are you sure?" She asks and I look into her eyes for a little while, trailing them down to her lips and back up to her eyes. I smile very slightly then kiss her as if to tell her that this is what I want to do. She let go of my hand and I continued. I took her pants off and I notice something I didn't before. Meagan has huge, deep scars from self harm all over her beautiful thighs. I stop to look at them and I trace every single one with the tip of my index finger. Tears swell up in my eyes and I lean down to kiss the scars. When I come back up Meagan wipes the tears from my face.

"It was a long time ago Kelsey." She said with a faint tone in her voice.

I lean in to kiss her passionately

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I walked into my bathroom to take a shower. I'm so sweaty and gross from that earth shattering sex I just had with Meagan. I stand by the faucet and turn on the water. My towel gets pulled off of me, revealing my naked body. I turn around covering myself.

"Meagan!" I say grabbing my towel back but she won't give it to me. She pulls me in by using the rest of the towel and kisses me so passionately we both drop the towel. Her hands are on the small of my back, pushing me against her as much as she could.

She leans back, "I'm gonna go to work but I'll see you soon okay?"

I nod and I watch as she walks out of my bathroom. I wait for the front door to shut before I step in the nice cold shower.

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4 days later

I haven't heard from Caylen since she came over. I grabbed my keys and headed to her house. I pulled up to the curb and my stomach dropped. The last time I was here without warning I got my heart broken. I take a deep breath and walk up to the door where I use my key to let myself in.

"Shane is gone Rob! We don't have a little boy anymore!" I hear Stacey yell

"I know that Stacey but you can't treat her like that! It was an accident! She feels bad enough without you saying bullshit like that to make her feel even worse!" Robert yells back

They continue to yell back and forth at each other so I just make my way upstairs to Caylen's room. I open the door to see her holding a knife to her wrist.

"Caylen!" I scared her so she jumped and looked at me. "What the fuck are you doing?!" I walk over to her and take the knife out of her hand.

"I killed my little brother, I tore my family apart, I lost my girlfriend, I'm such a fuck-up Kels."

"I'm right here tho."

"No you're not." Tears stream down her face "Remember when I punched you...I'm so sorry for hurting you."

"Caylen you've never laid a finger on me and I'd know that because I don't tolerate that bullshit."

She reaches for the knife again and I move my hand back.

"We can talk about this Caylen."

"I don't want to talk." She plunges towards me and we fight for the knife. I try holding onto it with everything I have but Caylen moves it in a way so it stabbed my stomach. I let go and applied pressure to my now bleeding abdomen and looked at Caylen with pain.

"I can't do this anymore. I love you." Before I could do or say anything, the blade was already in her skin. She dropped the knife to the floor along with her body. Tears streamed down my face the wild rapids as I move in pain to try to comfort her. I tried to stop the bleeding but she cut right into her veins. I sat there, her bleeding, near dead body laying on top of me and I covered my stab wound with one hand and played with her hair using my other.

"I love you too." I whispered by her ear then kissed her forehead. I knew it was over. I know when she's determined and there was no way I could have stopped her.